A New Me

Sat 19 June(early morning) 2010

2010-06-18T12:26:00.000-07:00

i noe sme stuff isnt suppose to be rushed thru...but i cant help but ask abt it...whr did my self-contented go to?i realli wonder...hiding it is makin me feel tired..nth abt my pride...jus wonders n wonders...guess all i can do is to wait?n gosh...i nid sme strength to b able to so...hais...emo-ness seems to b gettin at me pretty frequently these days..my mind cant help but to think abt it...think abt hw am i suppose to bring the subject up...n when i do, the answer wasnt wad i expected..smth seems to make me feel damn tight hearin de ans..it jus makes me think alot..am i tt bad as to hav to hide it away?i noe de ans is no.but stil, i wonder.was being frens actualli better?omg, i cant believe i am thinkin this qn...but i dun c much difference btween the two kinds of relationship..other than when we're alone, so wad am i suppose to do?wait i guess..that seems to b the only solution to this prob..i dun wanna think of the other option.jus by thinkin i feel my heart ache..i hav went too deep to think of that alr...

June 15 Tues (early morning)

2010-06-14T11:06:00.000-07:00

its 2am in de morning...im having squash compeitition tmr at 10am..n im here stil blogging..having a chalet aft tt...freakin out fr de match alr...gosh..all i need nw is a hug n a sentence frm a special someone...but it seems difficult..is life realli meaningful?mayb bcuz im freakin out nw so im emo-ing but i am vulnerable..is life meaningful?it doesnt seem that things will go de way i prefered..and i cant force certain things..mayb that's y im feeling so bad nw..or mayb im jus emo-ing..i duno...im nt sure..but hw i wish i could b honest abt certain stuff..hais..off to bed nw..mayb i'll feel better aft waking up..hopefully..

Mon 10 May 2010

2010-05-10T00:24:00.000-07:00

in sch nw...in de lab blogging...hahas...week 4 onli n assignments are pouring in...sian one...joined squash...a totally new sport tt i've nvr tried before...hmmm getting de hang of it...although de physical trainin is kinda difficult...but i tink i jus throw it to me nt seriously exercising tt much in quite a number of months...currently jus slacking.waiting fr squash training at 6.30pm ltr...life is starting to hav a meaning once more...jus happy...:)

Thurs Apr 1 2010

2010-04-01T00:30:00.000-07:00

Some ppl seem to misunderstand y did I post tt last post out…de title was if only all guys noe tt…its jus a hope….n to tink tt de note was actually taken frm one of my guy fren’s profile…it seem to b a wonder tt he actually noes wad girls are lookin out for n I tot it wud b gd to share it wif everyone..

It is pretty ironic I must agree wif Conrad….but nt for de same reason..to me..it is ironic bcoz it ws actually comin out frm a guy’s mind…but yet it seems lyk he is de only one that gets it….

U shld noe y I dun wanna patch bck…I dun see a point in continuing a relationship tt seems to me tt will nvr work out…u noe wad was de most angry part to me?de part tt u actually gt de cheeks to sae tt I nvr ever mentioned tt I treat my frens better dn my bf….n this was actually wad tt causes every quarrel…sry to sae….but I did mentioned abt me treating my frens better dn my bf b4 we even stead…I could even swear to which ever god u wan me to swear to u noe…but yet…as times proves it….it seems tt no one could stand me lyk tt…..nt u Conrad…nt any of my ex….no matter hw much they sae they do nt mind in de beginning…..it always ended up wif de same ending….quarrelling bcoz of this…n ended up breaking up…it is also becoz of this very same reason tt I can swear tt I did mentioned to u b4 we stead….bcoz I was seriously sick n tired of de same cause of quarrel…if I noe dn…tt u cant take tt fact….i promise….de whole relationship wouldn’t even started at all…another reason tt I dun wanna patch….bcoz I seriously dun believe tt u stil lyk me…to me…someone tt lyks me…wouldn’t threaten to take a chooper to my hse….wouldnt threaten to come find me n gimme a slap…although none of it happened, but to me, a guy tt is capable of sayin it….sayin tt he’ll hit a women..is equalaviant to a bastard…

Some ppl are gonna scold me y am I even bothering to reply u wif this blog post…bcoz de rite treatment to do is jus to ignore u all de way….n trust me….i’m gg to do tt startin frm fde very moment I posts this blog post…n btw…stop being a jerk n asshole by spreading stuff ard ur camp….if I managed to get whole of any solid evidence or get very irritated….u n ur officer can kiss ur whole career gdbye…..i meant it when I sae it…n for ur info….wanna find someone to irritate me…pls la…find somebody tt is better can….ur officer is seriously a loser in responding to de bombardments thrown by me lor..

bye bye

IF only, ALL guys noe this...

2010-03-18T09:28:00.001-07:00

saw this as one of my fren's notes on fb....if only all guys noe this...if onli guys do realli do this...den mayb eveything will hav a chge...but yet its so difficult to do so...no. 9 is de most most true thing..dun silent for a long time den come tell ppl tt u stil lyk her...n esp dun do so aft getting another relationship le n break le den come sae...but if she stil insist on not...trust her...she's suffering enuf alr n doesnt wanna make another mistake...

一。和她发短信时，回复一定要快，让她觉得你放下手上的事情立刻回复她，字数一定要比她的多，这样她会觉得你很在乎她。

二。每天睡觉之前一定要给她一条道“晚安”的短信，不管你有多晚，因为她可能一直在等你，只是她嘴上说不管。即便是她已经昏昏睡去，第二天一醒来也会立刻去查收信息。

三。看到她的未接电话要立刻打过去，任何时候不要让她找不到你，因为这样她会一直很不安心。

四。你问她想不想你时，如果她说不想，你不要生气，因为她的不想就是想。

五。千万要记得女生都是害羞的，不要什么都让她主动。也不要在她表现心疼、吃醋、关心你的时候不停地问，只要偷偷地笑心里甜就够了，也许她不想让你知道她无时无刻不在想对你好。

六。经常去她的空间逛逛，即使什么也不留下，但是她看到你来过的痕迹也会很开心，也许有些心情就是为你而写。顺便看看她的心情日志什么的，还有她好友的留言，多知道点她的小秘密挺好，准备惊喜也容易点。

七。牵了手就不要轻易说分手，吵架的时候也不要说。如果她赌气跑开，只要一个用力的拥抱就能让她安静，就能让她感觉到你的爱。希望你能懂她离开时想要被挽留，如果说出口那只是乞求来的温柔。

八。开始一段新的恋情的前提是放下前面的所有恋情，你可以把她们给你的信物和美好记忆保留着，但是请把这些用一个匣子藏在她永远不会发现的地方，因为那些她不知道的事对于她是致命的伤害。记住女生都是敏感的动物。

九。如果一时冲动分了手，请给彼此冷却的时间，想清楚她就是你想要的人就勇敢地告诉她，不管用什么手段，死皮赖脸也好让她回到你身边就好。如果真的爱她就不要放开她，不要让她伤心，不要让她流泪，你明明知道她有多傻，她会傻傻等你的，你知道女生的青春有多么宝贵么！如果你还心疼她绝不要在分手不到一个月就移情别恋，这样等于在她伤口上撒盐。请你交换角色想一想，如果你女朋友和你分手第二天就在别的男人怀里开心地笑，你的心会有多痛？

如果你有一个傻丫头，请你好好珍惜她好好爱她好吗？也许你不知道你的一句关心，你的一个微笑，你的一个吻，一个拥抱，一个摸头发的动作都是她的幸福，其实她要的只是这么简单。她不奢求太多的惊喜，太多的浪漫，有你就是她所有的幸福。不要轻易放开她，因为她是傻丫头，她会在别人面前装的很强，对每个人微笑，然后半夜一个人躲在楼梯拐角处偷偷哭啼，她会不停地听着和你有关的歌，默默关注着你，默默的生病，默默的流泪，她会开始变的沉默，变得开始唱悲伤的歌，弹悲伤的曲子。

如果你真的有一个傻丫头请记得你说的话好吗？请你让她幸福，给她幸福，要自信的对她说：“我会让你变成全世界最幸福的人，我要让所有的人都羡慕你有一个好老公。”

Wed 17 March 2010

2010-03-17T10:35:00.001-07:00

tagboard is bck to quietness...feels so gd to hav it bck...i noe de posts there sounds rather sarcastic la...but its hw i feel abt everything..ironic n sarcastic..i might sound lyk i'm givin ppl attitude prob la...but its wad i do when i feel a certain thing is way too ironic...lyk for example this incident..

it isnt a wrong thing that i treat my frens better den my bf rite...aft all frens are wad i start out wif...of coz there will be betrayals n changing of frens etc etc...but friendship is stil smth i treasure de most...

Early Friday March 12 2010

2010-03-11T09:39:00.001-08:00

honestly duno wad u wan frm me...n i hav no idea why u wanna bother me aft 3months...listen...its 3months...its a quarter of a yr...y disturb me?i dun get it...n i'm nt showing any attitude...if u tink so...i oso hav nth to sae..

Mon 8 March 2010

2010-03-08T06:09:00.001-08:00

its been hmmm 2months since i last blogged???lols....this time seriously veri long...Os results were bad....but stil managed to get into poly...nt my ideal course...but wadeva..it sounds kinda interesting anyway...games and entertainment technology...heard tt gals tt end up in this kinda course hardly lyk it in de end...hope it isn't de case for me...gaming...one of de least thing i thought i was ever gog to be in...but i am...so jus go wif de flow...hahas...

life has been abt de same...gog out n working part time...hahas..boring...tired..lols..my pool skills has also improve quite alot since last yr..hahas...lyk duh....i've been playin pool so much more often...stil tryin to work on my people connection.....seriously bad....

hmmm jus saw an unexpected person tagging on my tagboard...to conrad...hahas..live has been pretty well w/o u i guess...n ya i've been tryin my very best to avoid u....n cut off de connections i hav to u...thx so much for giving away my tt old no. ya?seriously thx alot...to u ma...if i sae i totally neutral le...its lying la...stil de usual me...being rather sarcastic when de topic is on u...but pls dun assume tt there's anything more...jus making myself clear here on this point..happy living w/o me too...:)

finding shows to watch....hahas...byes!! :)

Monday 11 Jan 2009

2010-01-10T09:28:00.001-08:00

okok....its honestly a long time since i last blogged....that last blog post was feeling damn emo at tt point of time...nw tt everythings cleared up...i'm startin to lighten up a little...wif much effort of coz...

my job at robinsons has finally come to an end...since i was onli working for a month...a month which was rather eventful...n probably did chge me quite abit...working there...made me c loads of kinds of customers...i've seen customers making a big fuss out of nth..very particular abt some details tt they themselves cant describe...purchasing cosmetics comin worth alot...and of coz making a number of frens...frens tt i'm not sure if i'll stil hav much connection wif...but hopes to kip in contact...

been gog out wif frens lately...makin new frens tgt wif catching up wif some frens...probably its due to de fact tt i'm currently single...i seem to be noticing guys quite abit...:) lols...i've been lyk gog to plae pool lyk quite often...someone asked me why i seem to hav a 180 degree kinda chge...well...i hav no idea oso...do i realli hav tt chge???i dun seem to notice...but one thing for sure...frens are realli de kinda ppl tt i hang out alot this break...hahas...

getting bck my O's result ltr at 2pm...gosah i'm lyk freakin out now...n tt explains why am i stil on9 at 1.20am hahas...been having sleepless nights for de past week...wonder wads wrong wif me..onli being able to slp in de morning...honestly hav no idea man...wondering wad model of hp shld i consider...hais...so many things...btw i Lurve Porsches....hahas...managed to sit one...hahas...honestly thanks to de owner...lol...jus lurve sports cars alot...de feeling of sitting in one was damn downright fantastic...i could finally tell de difference between de feeling of being in a sports car n being in a BMW..de turbo was nice! my gan di oso giv me a number of problems...esp tt recently one...hais...but wad else can i do...nth wad..jus hope he'll get thru this year...n hopefully it'll be a sail smoothing one...tokin loads of stuff wif totally no connection between them hahas...i guess that's abt all for now...all the best to everyone incl myself for de outcoming results!!!

Early tuesday 8 December 2009

2009-12-07T09:41:00.001-08:00

so to others...i'm worse den a prostitute....really very sorry...i didn't noe...

Sunday 29 November 2009

2009-11-29T09:19:00.001-08:00

Its been seriously a long time since i last blogged...and i sincerely apologise for it...quite a number of things hav happened during this 1month plus...

first of all, Os have been officially over!!!this is abt 3 weeks ago...hahas..3 weeks ago de things now den blog..i managed to catch MJ"s this is it in de cinemas rite on de last day it was available...although i'm not exactly a huge fan of MJ but no matter wad...i stil grew up listening to his songs...due to my er jie who is a great fan of MJ's...i could stil rmb i used to hate watching "Thriller" de MV....coz i was frightened by it....rather foolish i noe...but wad can i do....i was onli in kindergarden then...well, despite the many years going by, i'm stil kinda frightened by de ending laughter...it jus gives me de creeps la...

then,went to watch 2012 wif lao gong!!! =) de show was awesome sia!!!!so long nvr go out wif lao gong le....so the other day can go out wif lao gong realli realli veri happy...walked ard amk n plae arcade...hahas...seriously veri long nvr plae arcade le lor me...hais...no money la....

hmmm den i managed to found a job at robinsons as a cashier at de raffles city robinsons cosmetics...startin work on tues....quite happy la...coz at least can earn some money...hahas...but my mummy sae i shld save de money...shldn't go shopping wif it...hais...at first stil tot can buy myself a creative zen mp3 8gb but cheap...ju tt model...hahas...but hear my mummy lyk tt sae...oso duno hw lei....hais...but work for de month of dec nia...but tt oso means less time to pei lao gong....>< mehs..

once again...de topic on whether i shld go jc or poly is bringing brought up...why on earth does my whole family want me to go jc sia....damn la...seriously dun lyk de idea of gog to jc to chiong for 1 1/2 yrs den chiong for A lvl....i dun wanna go thru tt hell again la....but why cant anyone jus get it sia...duno told my mummy hw many times i dun wanna go jc liao...stil kip saying abt jc...duno wad she thinking lor....hais...blehs!!!!!!!!life sucks!!!!

one last thing....i went to cut my hair today!>< not short la...stil quite long...seriously cant stand de weather these days...when its sunny its super hot!!!so went to cut my hair...v-shaped seem to rather suit me uh...hahas..will try to post a pic of it asap ba...but not much difference oso...so ya....lao gong dun scold me la..blehs.

bleahs...signing off le bah....bye byes!!!will try to blog soon another time!!!!ciao!!

張信哲-從開始到現在

2009-10-21T03:25:00.001-07:00

my all time fav...though its quite sad...

Wednesday 14 October 2009

2009-10-14T04:23:00.001-07:00

The time has finally come…school is about to come to an end for me…well, in a sense…this week is the last week for me to go to school and its already half the week gone…after this Friday…we’ll all be on study leave until nxt Thursday’s O Level practical…(errr…scary~~~) after which the following week would be the official start for O Levels…nw this is real scary…
I hav to admit one thing…being a Pl-lite for my past 10 years education…I’ve always look forward to the day which I can finally graduate out of PL…but well, when the time comes..the mood and desire really changes a lot….today was PL’s Founder’s Day..had a service in school this morning…and well, it will be the last founder’s day service I’ll ever attend le bah….although by right every PL lite shld at least have gone to a concert…but well…I’m sad to say that I never went to any…and to think that PL is suppose to be centre for aesthetics…hais…

4 years in PL secondary has been a very fast and eventful journey…it’s as if yesterday that I just got into secondary 1 and took part in our school’s 90 hour music marathon at millennia walk as part of our founder’s day celebration….it was lyk totally fun n amazing..aftall our school is pretty well-known for our aesthetics department…:D then it was secondary 2…with the agape funfair and all…it was really another fun year…on a personal level, it was since secondary 2 that I started to mature even more…wif all the events going on in school and in my life…it was one hell of a year…then it was secondary 3….jus hw fast n amazing time flies…last year..was the year that practically changed my whole attitude coz of things that went around me..this year was jus a bullet train thru…and now…I’m about to leave the sheltering walls of PL…LOLS! This phrase has been used loads of times these 2 weeks in school that I cant help but also use it…hahas…okay…I noe I sound lyk some PL leader that is making a speech on hw PL has touched my life and etc…that I often find it ridiculous…but well, now I know how it feels to leave PL…hearing last year’s head prefact today giving her speech…was a real scare to me…

It’s really scary to know that everything will be different once we leave PL…all the familiar faces and tchers are really the highlight of being in PL…it’s as if u know 90% of your own cohort’s name…but once not in PL….its even rare to meet a good fren of yours out there…

I guess that’s the end of this recounting account of my life in PL….will probably blog sometime soon…til then….Bye!! :D

♥Mon 15 Sept 2009♥

2009-09-15T03:00:00.000-07:00

As I mentioned ytd….i’m bck~~~ :)

FIRST OF ALL….

HAPPY BIRHDAY DEAR!!!!!!!!!! ^.^

HAHAS...this is lyk my 3rd time wishin u a happy birthday..:) dun worry there’s most likely gonna be one more hahas…I tink…ya…most likely…

Hahas…actually today this time blogged is jus to wish u a happy birthday de…:) see…I so good to u rite…not lyk u so long nvr update liao…den oso nvr come c my blog de hor…my tagboard so quiet…hais…:P hmm you’ll see more things on de upcoming happy birthday thing again…lols..

Blehs….that’s all hahas…jus came to sae that nia…
Bye~~

Michael Jackson Medley

2009-09-15T02:53:00.001-07:00

Mon 14 Sept 2009

2009-09-14T08:53:00.000-07:00

Its been quite awhile since I last blogged..it’s been kinda of a eventful past few weeks. prelims ended jus before de hols…practical was quite a breeze thru…my other papers are lyk crap…September hols had came n went.one week only…didn’t do much….packed my table a little…well, at least it looks better than it was during my prelims when I dumped each of my subject notes jus all over my table..making quite a hell of a mess.now, it’s much more better..in a way…cant wait to pack all my secondary books into boxes n store it away lo…gosh…xD

Hmmm today is the first day of term 4…my last n final term n lap to my O’s….this term’s timetable is seriously quite sian lo…practically everyday is until 4pm…hais…but wad to do ne…having my O’s this yr…>< guessed it’s gonna be jus papers aft papers this term throughout for the whole intensive lessons n revision in school…on top of that stil gt English n A. maths tuition..getting quite restless alr…>< finally found someone to help me in my physics!!!yay!!! :)

I think I’ll blog once more tmr..coz tmr is a special day!! I shall not sae much abt it…hahas… :P

Byes~~

[KTV] 許哲珮 - 氣球

2009-08-28T04:45:00.001-07:00

Mon 24 Aug 2009

2009-08-24T08:52:00.000-07:00

Its been a seriously long long time ever since I last blogged…quite a few things happen during this period of time…

First of all, I’m officially 16!!hahas!!bdae was on 12 july…had a pretty memorable bdae…went to watch harry potter…a disappointment in hw Dumbledore died…other than that its pretty ok…I’ll stil watch the last one though…

Second, received a domo frm lao gong its actually de first time any of my bf gave me a stuff toy =) was a surprise to get it la…plus he actually ask his campmate to buy with him I think…frm white sands bring to lorong ah soo is seriously a damn far ride la…must hav been hilarious to see that kinda scence…

a pic of domo:

Thirdly, I got another godbro hahas…yay!!=) godbro muz jiayous uh…u can do it de!!=) seriously anything can find ur jie me de…hahas…of coz stil can find ju la..so ya…n dun worry I’ll kip in contact wif u even aft I leave PL de la…coz I’ll be keepin in contact wif ju…

Last of all, I gt bck my chi O’s result…hais…b3 nia crap la…b3 wif a distinction for oral…sibei bu fu qi la…so I’ve decided to put myself thru tt hell once more hahas…jk…jus gonna try my luck once more…coz I seriously nid the point…

Just to mention.Life is full of situations all the time, good and bad. There’s nothing anyone can do to change that fact. However, leaving to fate to decide your future is a foolish thing to do. What can be done is to accept the fact and try to move on with life no matter what the future brings to you.

Hope that people who are feeling weak and bad inside could relieve themselves of whatever situation they are in, or at least the emotions that is caused by the situation, of course, including me.

With that, I shall blog another time when possible...:)

Talking Cork In Parliament - Hossan Leong

2009-08-01T09:01:00.001-07:00

Say Fire Truck (Rated R) The ORIGINAL!

2009-07-30T03:36:00.001-07:00

Buhlud.

2009-07-30T03:30:00.001-07:00

can u make up wad he's sayin???he's tryin to say blood....look at his expression...gosh....HAHAHAHAHAS

[Swine flu song] Wash Your Hands Too (Parody of Wonder Girl's 'Nobody')

2009-07-30T03:05:00.001-07:00

this is jus damn freaking funni lah...

Mon 6 July 2009

2009-07-06T04:44:00.000-07:00

Okay….its been again quite a awhile since the last time I blogged…sch hols are officially already over…though some schools are stil on hols…de last time I heard…first week of school was incredibly...TIRING!! pure tiredness…n I was damn glad that I SURVIVED THE FIRST WEEK OF SCHOOL!!certain things happened over the last few weeks….my utmost favourite n idol, Michael Jackson passed away…and things just start happening aft tt….plenty of tributes have been surfacing all over the world to remember MJ….some ppl might be surprised that I actually like MJ…well wad can be that surprising..i practically grew up with his songs…70% of time becoz I was scared of his ‘Thriller’ MV….that werewolve one….jus givs me de creeps…its damn sad that he died before making his comeback…hais….

Chi orals has started….mine is on wed….hais…damn scared la…wonder hw will it be…this term’s pace is obviously faster den de last term…n I noe its gonna get worse….which lyk kinda mean I’m gonna be dead….prelim is de highlight….if my prelim do badly….i’m lyk DEAD. Seriously…dang…dun wanna tok abt it….jus gets me more worried…

And lastly…my bdae’s coming hahahas!!!cant wait for it…turning 16 le…but oso kinda dun wan….haix…mixed feelings sia…

think that’s abt all for now….tot I have a lot to tok abt…hmm bye for now den..

13 June 2009

2009-06-13T09:59:00.000-07:00

Its been another long time since I last blogged….hols has started….but for me it has only jus started ytd…coz for the past week n last week I had to go bck to sch for lessons…finally cleared o chi Os on the 1st…hopefully I can clear this time n get at least a B3 den I dun nid to take it at the end of the year….results for this first sem was really really bad….i’m lyk at the risk zone alr….wif my aggregate for both L1R4 n R5 I doubt there’s anywhr I can go bah….so there’s a lot to catch up on over this hols…how hardworking do I sound….but whether or not I really do it I tink its another matter liao lo….

Went to desaru(I’m not sure how to spell it…) supposedly a part of JB today. Anyway went to the IT show ytd…woah ok…though its not the last day but there was stil loads of ppl….pretty cool deals….got tempted coz de ipod shuffle 4GB was only gog at 100+ ytd…though it’s kinda old but I dun mind…went to the fruit farm and everything….its pretty ok la….haix at first stil tot got a lot of things to tok abt…in the end….lyk tt only…..sianzzz….

I miss dear….>< miss dear’s hug and everything everything…>< blehs…

Superman-Nese * Hot Shot * Dance HQ

2009-06-08T07:59:00.001-07:00

jus lurve this....^^

Sexy skirt blowing prank

2009-05-25T02:52:00.001-07:00

wow......so hot n sexy sia....hahas.....

Sexy Irresistible Banana Eating Pranks

2009-05-25T02:40:00.001-07:00

this is freaking funny. ROFL.LOL.

Fri 15 May 09

2009-05-15T04:33:00.000-07:00

Hmmmm another end of the week….papers ended ytd….wif a finishin close of chi listenin compre…hmm watched a movie ytd wif ju n karen…the uninvited…..is a horror movie….which is kinda surprising that I would watch it esp in cinemas….that was the first time I watched a horror movie in cinemas….coz I nvr dared to watch in cinemas…scared I ltr scream….but the movie’s scary scenes were rather predictable….but stil got scared a little anyway…cant help it….ju n karen cant stand me…but wad can they do…they’re de ones that wanted to watch the show n I did warn them abt me not liking to watch horror movies…but I gave in anyway….didnt wanted to be a spoilsport…so ya…it was a rather good story la…really got lost towards the ending portion….a quite bad ending too…the girl was actually mad….thinking that her sister was still alive that actually died when she accidentally spilled the fuel n lighted it wif a candle…her mum n sis died in that incident…but she didn’t accept the fact that her sis died n everything….n she went mad…a very very bad ending….

Hmm today was a EXTREMELY BORING day!!!went to sch for some career guidance kinda thing….it was bored, tiring, and makes me wanna slp…dun wanna tok much abt it..the thing i learnt today is that i'm so definitely not gog to ACJC. 6 pts for sciences 7 for arts...much more a No.

Movies I’m interested to watch nw aft the last trip to the cinemas:

1. X-men wolverine origins(anything)
2. Angel & Demons ( a movie that sounds chao exciting)
3. Drag me to hell(coming soon)(horror, scary but sounds interesting)><
4. Harry potter & the half-blood prince(a must watch for me):]

Hmmm tink that’s abt all for nw…blog another time or smth….any1 interested in the above movies and wanna go watch can jio me out…hahas…provided I can go out n watch la…>< blehs…

Byes~

Missing dear’s hug once again.><

Fri 8 May 2009(early morning of 9 may)

2009-05-08T10:18:00.000-07:00

Hmmm its finally the end of this week….gosh…this week everyday 2 papers…wth la….felt lyk eternity…at this point of time…I can sae that I’m dead for my MYEs le…

Monday was Social Studies and Lit…..basically jus dead…SS was pretty ok…soso….not sae killer paper or wad…but the source based was rather tricky and everything…so a little worried for it…den Lit lei..my unseen is lyk dead…it was honestly wad I can write I jus write that kinda thing…I tink I repeated myself quite abit for unseen…passage based was pretty ok…..managed to write de total of 2 ½ sides of foolscap paper for altgt the part a n b…

Tuesday was maths paper 1 and geog….talk until I jiu pek cek….hmm tok abt maths first la….quite a no of questions I didn’t noe…skipped lyk a number of them so ya…i tink I might fail the paper 1…den geog….gosh la…..i duno croos eye or wad shit….go skip one part of the question…only to realise it when gonna hand in paper…anyways even if I did notice it earlier…I oso not enuf time to do…8 marks lyk this jus fly away~~~ wth…

Wednesday was A. Maths paper 1 and Sci(Chem)…wth…A. Maths paper 1 was harder den wad I tink….at first stil scared that differentiation n integration will come….in the end only one freaking question come out….all the others was practically sec 3 work!!! Wth.>< chem mahs..hmmm cant rmb hw was the paper…but this one even if I fail I oso not too surprised liao la…wad to do….i is fail one whole yr last yr lei….
Thursday was Maths Paper 2 and CL….paper 2 didn’t help me save any marks at all la….again skipped quite a bit….stupid bearing question….ask mr chin le den noe its freaking easy n I practically skipped that whole question….onli did one portion of it….wthwthwth… den FINALLY!!! CL PAPER!! Hahas…this one is the only one that I can proudly sae…NO, I DIDN’T DIE FOR THIS PAPER!!!!HAHAS.. but sadly…this is the only paper that I can sae…

Friday which is today….or rather ytd… was Sci(Phy) and EL paper 2….paper 2 was ok….except EXCEPT for the summary!!!!i wrote quite little la….word limit not more den 150 meanin by rite I shld rite abt 130 ++ ended up u guys wanna guess hw much I write???i wrote…114 words….wthwthwthwthwthwth….114 la…..is too little liao lo…this is lyk seriously de kbkb thing la…phy….hahas….dun nid to mention la…oso die….

Therefore, at this point in time, I can sae that my MYEs are basically dead!!!!>< heck.nxt wk is A.Maths paper2….i’m so gonna do specimen papers…chem n phy p1 and CL listening….den my MYEs are officially officially over le…
Hais…this week cannt c dear…>< chao saded de…I WANNA SEE MY DEAR!!!!><>< hais….onli can see if nxt wk can see dear le lo….TT....dear…I MISS YOU!!!><><

Hmm tink that’s all le bah…blog another time…

Byes~~

Thurs 30 Apr 2009

2009-04-30T10:13:00.000-07:00

Hmmm myes are lyk nxt wk….sianzz…anyways ran my 2.4 today…hahas…I pass!!!yay!!first time I pass at the very very first try with a grade that is not E….lols….hmmm bored and alone…for now…tink dear went to slp alr??blehs….nvm bahs…tink he’s honestly really tired…jiayous nahs dear…heex…

Hmm this long weekend ahead gotta chiong liao…>< todays tuition was pretty ok….i guess…got nagged for talkin in class…lols…oso not my first time liao…so its alrite…used to it le….accidentally said thingy in front of the whole class to ju…den mr chin talked even more??lols? duno y I suddenly will lyk tt sae….usualli oso once in awhile will sae lyk tt de…got pract de whole class’s attention…jus hate it when it happens this way….hais..kip tinkin that tuition stil starts at 7.30 but its actually frm 7.15..nvm…today last time liao…nxt wk bck to 7.30….

Missed Symphony of Praise in sch…sian…wanna go watch de lo….den the stupid tickets all sold out…hais….hopefully there’s another musical or some sort of concert this year…last yr in PL liao…duno whether shld sae happy or sad lei…

Hmmm got bck my chem practical results liao….stupid metal R…..metal I stil go put ion….wth lo….den lyk tt got 14/15….but nvm la…first time get so high for exam practical de lei….hopefully my science for myes will pass bah….fail one whole yr liao….alr enuf sian of it le lo….

Miss dear a lot oh…..my one week hug gonna finish effect le…>.< mehs…
Tok-ed abt quite a number of things but its pretty messy….hmmm gtg alr…hav to go slp…damn late liaos…>< maybe blog another day or smth…

Byes~

Fri 24 April 2009

2009-04-24T05:07:00.000-07:00

Hmmm ok….its erm…coming to the end of april…?lols….last post was on the 1st….hmm stress level has been kinda high…although I might not look or sound like it….stil busying studying for my chem…finishing thou…but its stil kinda too late….nvm….chiong lyk xiao liao lo….hmm MYEs are starting on the 4th of May..had EL n CL paper 1 today….tgt wif eng oral…. My English compo is lyk so so deaded alr lo….think I writing crap la…Chinese was pretty ok….as usual…hahas…den aftnoon had English oral….damn irritating lo de sec5s that were down today…its I tink 4 or 3 classes uh…B2,C1 and 1 or 2 sec5 class….den there’s 7 tchers….so by right one class is suppose to have 2 at a time lyk tat la….den de sec5s kip sending lyk 3, 4 people lo…..wth…>< den the timekeeper oso damn unfair la..when the 5mins for preparation gog to time up den tell de sec 5 class…kbkb….ended up I had to giv up my seat to another girl…..hell lo….den sit there lyk some idiot lyk that lo me….that sec5 class shld jus stay bck and slowly do la….sibei pek cek de lo…screwed up day...

Hais…enuf abt the irritating stuff…managed to catch fast and furious 4 hahas…nvr left me disappointed…its such a damn freaking nice show…jus love vin diesel so much…hahas…but love the cars a little bitty more…hahas…but love dear the most ultimate one…heex…:P

4 months liao…though its not today la…but hao kai xin chao kai xin de…I LOVE YOU DEAR!!!xD loves dear’s hug esp…mehs….is kao dear’s hug den can study de norhs…blehs…everytime a week nvr c dear den will feel very tired….hais….i cannot do without dear le….><

Mehs….my maid nagging me go eat dinner le….gtg….byes~~ heex. :]

Wed 1st April 2009

2009-04-01T04:35:00.000-07:00

Hmm today’s the 1st of April…meaning it’s April fool’s day..today’s school was pretty enjoyable….nope….no tchers played a prank on us but we played a prank on them…my class and 4C1 went to swap class….apparently that was a very old trick….but well..wad else could we do…hahas…so we chose a period whr both our tcher’s are pretty ok to play a prank on…and we chose our maths class n 4C1’s geog…our maths tcher being Ms Liang and their geog tcher being Ms Lim, who is also my class’s form tcher….it was really fun la…had about half the class switching….so of coz…Ms Lim realised..aft all she’s our form tcher wad….but ms Liang was a little slow in realising….which made the whole thing even more funnier…ended up the 2 tchers oso played along wif us…hahas…become ms Lim went to teach maths Ms Liang came n teach geography…it was honestly funny la….4 yrs in PL and in fact…this is the first time we played pranks on the tchers…of coz…at the end of everything..we all went bck to our own respective classes…wanted to play it once more for our English banded class….but..well the two tcher’s we had nxt to us…either 4C1 or 4B1 their English tchers were rather scary??coz none of us dared to play the prank on them so it wasn’t any special….

Time really passed pretty fast…its alr april….haiz….i’m really filled with loads of mixed feelings…chi o lvl is lyk coming nearer n nearer…and it kinds of freaks me out…a very rare thing that would happen to me for chi…but somehow…it jus freaks me out…haiz….guess the very first thing to clear for now is my mid yr paper…while working on my chi…I can honestly c a pretty tight schedule…><

Missing dear more and more each day….><

I guess that’s abt all…gotta go eat dinner now….xD

Byes~

Sun March 29 2009

2009-03-29T08:56:00.000-07:00

Hmmm ok…I noe its again been quite abit since I last blogged…well….nth much happened…not exactly…hmmm the march hols jus came n went…nvr did anything I actually wanted to do…actually only one thing…spend time wif dear…hehs….spent almost a whole day wif dear during the hols….that one nerhs…jiu chao happy de….

Hmm one week of sch has jus passed and it’s abt to be the second week of this term…mid yrs are lyk a month away n I haven’t started on my revision….honestly know I’m suppose to start revision lyk asap….but ya…no mood…><

sports day was last fri....heard that monfort oso had sports day that day???hmm anyway...chew hse won champion hse this year...hahas....yesh~~ at least this would mark a good end to my 4yrs in pl...xD

3 months plus abit liao….:) me and dear been tgt for so long le…hehs…stil cant exactly believe it…hmmm tgt wif dear this period of time of coz oso got some unhappy memories la….but there’s always more happy memories…hmm hope that we’ll always be tgt….><

Guess that’s abt all for now….glad that the things of imposters are no longer comin….but my tagboard seems rather deserted nw…so do tag on my tagboard…but pls…dun start a war once more…hope you ppl would lyk my new blogskin….it was such an ordeal to choose…><

Byes~

thurs 12 march 09

2009-03-11T23:31:00.000-07:00

hmmm currently at my fren's hse...gonna go for lunch soon....i shld clear up some mess on my tagoboard....first...i honestly dun mean offence to any1 who finds so....the bunch of ppl who are impersonating, dun ever EVER let me catch you or noe who you are...esp the other jt i hav on my tagboard....lyk wad i said...if you ppl dare....use ur own name if you ever dare...

haiz....heard of some unfortunate news frm my darling galfren....dun noe wad to sae lo...tis news all the more goes to show that some guys are just purely bastards and assholes....okay la...not all but unfortunately....i noe a few of them personally and they are all serious attiude plus...asshole n jerks lo.....wtf....

hmm gtg....hav to go grab lunch den head bck to sch for cca....so sianzz...its so boring~~~....blog another time den...byes~

Mon 9 March 09

2009-03-09T08:24:00.000-07:00

Hmm nth much happened actualli…as loads of ppl could see…lyk pretty obviously…my tagboard has been rather heated….due to particularly an asshole….whose basically a lame piece of thing…hmm went for a workshop on sat at tampines..honestly…it’s the one of the few Saturdays that I woke up early…woke up at abt 8+ coz the workshop is at 10…went to ju’s hse to get a lift from karen’s mum…reach there b4 10…the library not yet open….aft tt went to ju’s hse awhile…helped her mum do some filing…><…I’m broke lo….tink shld try find a job…lyk helpin wif ju’s mum probably….stil tinkin abt it…

Aft tt went to tuition….didnt look at the time…so was lyk late for class..shld have been able to made it on time de….but went to the bus stop that time jus nice missed de bus…then when the bus come le den went on….and den guess who I saw???i saw dear….XD hahas….chao happy de lorhs…coz actually I aft the workshop wanted to go out wif dear one….den dear cannt make it…coz gotta help his lao pa….so ended up went to ju’s hse….at first stil emoemo de coz cannt c dear….den unexpectedly saw him…hehes…coz it’s me n ju on the bus first den the following bus stop he den come on…so qiao lo….XD ^^ so in the end…dear send to tuition along with ju b4 gog out wif his frens…den so diaos…went to class then mr chin losing his voice…same as ju…both their voice sha sha de….but the lesson was pretty boring…I 4gt some of my sec3 a maths le…wth lo….den its lyk over do the paper…blur diaos one…do halfway skip that kinda thing….luckily time passed quite fast…was almost at the verge of dyin from boredom…

But smth pissed me off further…in tuition....>< shant tok abt it...

That’s abt all….bye byes…

Thurs 5 March 09

2009-03-05T06:11:00.000-08:00

Hmmm….things are back to normal? Ya maybe normal is the word to use…relationship has all been set rite…I suppose…?? Except for the fact tat I’ve recently got a pain in my ass bothering me….not literally…but a guy who is such a cocky airhead….pathetic him…attention seekin ass la he….a very big hypocrite… cant be bothered to tok abt him anymore….he’s been the hot topic that I’ve been complainin to my galfrens these days…hw sad…..

Anyway…ct all finish le….result is lyk comin bck one by one…and honestly…I tink I did quite badly…haiz….last yr le stil lyk tt….i’m lyk so dead….met a fren ytd aft sch….which was a long time no see…as in well quite a few months liao…abt lyk comin to half a yr nvr c him…so ya….catched up pretty a lot….i tink….well life for me wasn’t exactly a total parallel chge but there are changes….

Term 1 is coming to an end….i have no idea shld I be happy abt it or sad or wad other feeling abt it….in short, a mixed feeling….chi O’s are lyk a few months away….and there’s stil quite abit of improvement I have to do b4 I could reach my target….of A1 hahas….its de only subj I hope to get a A1…esp since I could clear it first…others mahs….i stil got a long way to go b4 being ok….

Feel lyk changing blogskin n song….hais….jus cant decide….><

I guess that’s abt all….nth much to blog actually….byes~

Sun Feb 15 2009

2009-02-15T06:52:00.000-08:00

Hmmm its been quite some time since I last blog…cny has long passed….this year ended up nvr take any photos at all….as in as a whole family la…so ya….dun tink will hav any photo to upload….hmmm yest was valentines….hmm shan’t mention anything abt it la…got another surprise this time…on valentines….kinda a nasty surprise…definitely not wad I expected….den oso realised that foreshadowing could also happen in real life….woman’s hunch is indeed very strong…hahas…hw? Seems lyk I startin to emo emo again….haiz….i suppose ju can cheer me up in sch la…but at home mahs….hahas…den hav to depend on my on9 frens liao….XD

Hmmm all of a sudden…I woke up today wif a new kor in my hp contact…^^ kinda happy la…lest nw I dun nid get to emotionally swayed liaos…that’s kinda a gd thing isit?well depends on individuals…running away is definitely wad I’m gd at….n I’m gonna unleash that gd power I have….running away….blehs…only to return to mother earth once in a short while lyk these few days….unleashing of my power would hav to w8 til I’m done wif my first common test of the year….did very badly for my trigo test lo….seriously seriously cant freaking stand it….hw on earth can I fail my trigo for amaths….gosh man….aft tt look thru my paper le…den realise got a lot of damn freaking careless mistakes….wtf!.....muz definitely be more careful this time for common test….otherwise I’ll die lyk shit la…probably jus kill myself…if I stil that careless….blehs….common test this week….sad sad la….sobsob…no mood to study at all lo….wad the heck la….lyk hw on earth am I suppose to hav the mood to study….but wth….bo bian hav to study….so starting to force myself to study lo…

Starting to hate Singapore’s weather….esp these 2 days….its been incredibly warm during the day…yest was pretty bearable…stil can tahan….today was esp hot n warm la….its lyk wad de heck lo…kip sweatin n sweating….haiz…

Hmmm I guess that’s abt all for now I suppose….

Mon 19 Jan 2009

2009-01-19T07:53:00.001-08:00

Hmm chinese new year is coming up this week….hw exciting…hahas…ok….maybe I dun sound excited at all but well….trust me…I’m pretty excited….last week seems to be a long long week….coz lyk nvr c dear at all….hahas….but he surprised me by comin to find me aft tuition….i really didn’t tot that he would be there…b4 that maybe coz I was in class that’s y he hardly sms me….but it’s lyk jus b4 tat he lyk kinda cold towards me….nvr sms much kinda thing den aft class I actually c him downstairs…there’s no words to describe that surprise lo….ok la…though he isn’t the first guy that did that...-all of a sudden come find me aft class. But it was really kinda surprising…coz the other incident…didn’t exactly turn out well…wadeva abt the previous incident…that was on Tuesday….aft tat..coz I needed to rush home so only managed to c each other awhile….

Aft tat it seems lyk another eternity b4 seeing him again….though aft tat the nxt time I saw him was on Friday..3 days aft Tuesday…but it seems so long….tok abt fri….i was supposed to meet a online fren aft school tat day….dear oso noes abt it la….den jus b4 my last lesson…dear suddenly sms me sayin today cfm can c me…hahas…ask me to w8 for him aft class….i ended up smiling lyk some overly high person that last lesson….until ju was kinda fed up wif me…hahas…den I was wondering to myself while waiting for dear…so does this means that he’s going wif me??it didn’t turn out well when it happened the last time…tok abt experiences here…haiz….ok so I was wondering…so might as well ask dear straightaway rite….so I ask dear lo….in the end…dear sounded unhappy and sad…so xin teng…den on the other hand..my on9 fren that I was supposed to meet kip changing place…frm plaza sing. to borders to vivo….wad a nice chge of place huh…den at this point of time...so in the end…aft much thinking and struggling…I decided to spend time wif dear….and pangsei that on9 fren of mine….smth which I’ll nvr do in the past…blehx…another proof to hw much different this relationship is to all my previous relationships…honestly speaking I was alr tempted to pandsei that on9 fren le lo….chge of places so many times….it jus practically pisses me off….den…dear sms me…jus aft I sms my on9 fren sayin I couldn’t make it n stuff….dear sms me…go den go lo….wad a bad bad angry angry tone that is….blehs….smth that would absolutely flare me up in the past…so I was lyk so stil wna meet ma…if not I go home…kinda pissed alr…but aft tt I was on the verge of cryin lo…of cuz will angry ma…but I was on the verge of crying…>< so in the end…spended my fri aftnoon slacking wif dear…hahas…weekend was pretty ok….dear was all busy n stuff….it’s Monday today…n I’m missing dear again….>< hwhwhw???blehs…I hav no idea…wonder when will the next time be for me to be able to see him…

That’s abt all….c ya…

Sun Jan 11 09

2009-01-11T05:51:00.001-08:00

Finalli a week of school has jus finish…though tmr stil nid to go bck to sch and it’s another week of school but wadeva….school s’ been way too tiring….boring n stuff…..haiz jus the mention of it….jus makes me sian…
Yest was cca fair….and seriously…it was so damn sian lo….there’s a lot of ppl but too many til you don’t lyk it kinda thing….dn at there so damn sian….aft that went to Singapore poly….i went to two open house this year only..singapore poly n ngee ann…but seriously speaking I find that ngee ann a lot more friendlier lo….singapore poly lyk kinda sian sian de….

Haiz….tmr nid to go bck to sch….so sian…blehx…guess that’s about all for now

Tues 6 Jan 2009

2009-01-06T07:57:00.001-08:00

Hmmm just realised a few days ago that I’m probably dead in the relationship I’m in…been quite a while since I felt this way again….and I actually broke my own rule today…asking about his exs…smth that to me in the past is jus plain ridiculous coz I dun mind abt my ex’s previous gfs b4 me….but I myself actually broke that…jus so shocking…too many first times came with this relationship….first time breakin my this rule n mind so much about his exs…first time cryin…not becoz of sadness but touched….first time I’m caught in a dilemmas but not break up….jus all these are all enough….all of which I nvr experienced…I’m going deep into this relationship….

Ok enuf abt that….beta if I type lesser…dn won’t be so luan again…

Hmm today’s tuition was interesting and fun….frm a class of 5 incl me….it became more than 10…this time mostly guys….but well they are majority last year’s ‘classmates’ so not much difference kinda thing…laugh quite abit in today’s lesson thou there were times that the class was laughing a lot harder…that’s coz of the stupid answers that some guys gave when mr sany(my tuition tcher) asks for the ans…things lyk running ahead of the class…n repeatedly sayin the ans to the next question….wrong understanding of the question…resulting in even more silly answers..lyk ask question for a then give the ans is another whole matter which is totally not in relation of the question…

Guess that’s about all for today….next post...

Mon 5 Jan 2009

2009-01-06T07:44:00.000-08:00

Hmmm todays the first official day for lesson….honestly speaking the canteen food stil sucks…..i’m wondering if I shld go flood the suggestion box n ask a couple of frens for their opinion n ask them to join in….lessons for today are pretty ok….quite enjoy it…both my maths n a. maths tcher very fun lo….miss winnie liang…ju had her for maths in sec2 n it seems she teaches quite fun….hopefully it would maintain for the rest of the year…

Fri 2 Jan 2009

2009-01-02T08:21:00.000-08:00

It's the first post for year 2009.....so sry…the last post ended so abrupt. It was supposed to be longer de…but coz due to lack of time I had to end it there. Year 2009 has come and it’s the first day of school today...wad of bullshit abt mixed feelings….time to face reality…but I’m still tryin to run away frm it…pathetic eh…8 months of lessons and it’s the o lvl….not to mention abt my Chinese o lvl in june. Jus hope that nth too major setback will be there for me….in the upcoming year…

So far school’s pretty alrite….except for the canteen food which was screwed up today..Chicken rice was too salty…jus the rice alone…is salty enuf…drinks were diluted…drank some of my fren’s cup…feel so lucky that I actually bought bottled drink….my fav too…POKKA GREEN TEA….i’m rather fussy abt my green tea I must admit…if it isn’t pokka brand I won’t drink unless there is nth at all other dn other brands of green tea lyk, for example, heaven’s and earth green tea…I jus dun like the taste of it thou it’s suppose to be the same…both are jasmine green tea…other than the canteen food which was horrible today…others are pretty fine…

Today is also the birth of my second niece….for those who added me in Friendster, facebook n msn will c me wif a little gal in a pic….that’s my first niece…well kinda…not counting those that are cousin’s sons and daughters…but this niece is my da jie’s daughter…so as u can guess…there’s a second gal….hw wonderful….hahas…went to c the baby at the hospital jus nw in the evening….so cute…look really lyk her jie la…hahas…frm now on…that’s one more niece for me to teng….

I guess that’s about all for now…bye!!!

Wed 31 Dec 2008

2008-12-31T03:02:00.000-08:00

It’s the last day of 2008. Loads of mixed feelings is going thru me. Year 2008 has been a unforgettable one. Many relationships have been put to test but little few have gone pass the test. A whole new mindset I’m having right now. Which I have no idea if it’s a good mindset or not. Many lesson were learnt for me this year. The most ironic thing is that I actually wished for all those things. Unbelievable but no idea why I just feel it that way. An exciting 2008 was what I all wished for exactly one year ago. Honestly, I certainly had that one exciting year for me in sort of a good way too. This upcoming year, 2009, I just wish that everything well be smooth for me, ya it’s kind of too much to ask for this, but I wish that majority of things will be smooth for me, especially academic wise.
Hmmm gtg….such a abrupt ending but ya.

Happy New Year. All the best to everyone

Thurs 25 Dec 08

2008-12-25T09:19:00.000-08:00

It’s Christmas maybe becoz this year’s Christmas nth much to do so here I am once again blogging…my Christmas was such a failure….haiz….tink it could have been a lot more successful but all becoz of my mum it wasn’t really a success….>< today actually went out with dear de….late mornin went his hse n kinda slack abit…aft tat ne den we went out it was lyk aftnoon 3pm alr….dn my mum wans me bck hme by 5….wth lo….in the end at first wanted to watch movie de ended up cant watch…coz I gotta be hme by 5….so went to plae arcade…lol….i cant rmb when was the last time I went to the arcade….coz it’s been quite some time….or maybe not…now that I remember the last time I went to arcade was with ju, her bro n karen at j8….dn today is go wif dear…

Such a pity lo…..in the end didn’t manage to watch movie with dear….so sad….dn somemore only spend a short time with dear nia…dn nid to go hme….haiz…I wonder when can my curfew be extended man…..

It’s another one more week til sch reopen and seriously honestly speakin I don’t feel lyk going to sch…..it’s my fourth year alr….haiz….but I very guai de mah….nvr pontank sch b4….i oso dun dare to lo….haiz….as usual once more….i’m not done with my hols hmewk yet…lol rite….one more week nia…haiz…jus feel lyk slacking but I doubt I can lo….sad sad…I have to sae goodbye to most of my freedom in one week’s time….haiz….

That’s abt all I guess…c ya….a pretty short one but ya….

Thurs 25 Dec 08

2008-12-24T10:46:00.000-08:00

Due to a very very strong request …I’m back to blogging once more…..a very rare thing I’ll do….to blog 2 posts within such a short time….

Hmmm in really a lot more previous posts….relationship problems were one of my topic….it’s been quite some time ever since I ended my last relationship….those days without a boyfriend were truly indeed a lot more freedom but no matter wad….there always tends to be a tinge of loneliness in it….maybe not a tinge…but well sometimes it could forgotten, the loneliness. Honestly speaking, ever since that incident I no longer ‘look’ for relationship….making frens was all I want….but maybe truly a pure friendship is not exactly possible between a girl and a guy….

Not long ago, recently rather, I once again said goodbye to singlehood life. Yes, I’m once again in a relationship. Some of my friends might go not again or wadsoever. But truthfully, I don’t regret getting into this relationship, or rather I should say I don’t regret it so far.(opps, u didn’t hear that frm me.>< don’t spank me la…dear….pls…)

The word ‘love’ seems to be difficult for me to say. And I tink u might be wondering why rite? Dear? Though now is no longer much problem but starting it was a problem. This word has became difficult for me to say ever since, I can’t rmb when.
Dear, I really don’t know hw long will this relationship last…lyk wad u noe lo…only my first relationship lasted for 8 months…..8months lei…not even one year lo….not to mentioned the rest…the shortest one being one week etc. there, u c la….really become a emo post le….

But dear, I really really wanna spend more than 8 months wif u….zhen de…I don’t know how promising that is. But I really want to do so….but dear…there’s a lot a lot of things that I need u to forgive abt me lo….i oso dunno hw to sae it out…but I tink that there will be a lot of things that you gotta bao rong me abt….

To my exs, I tink they’ll scoffed at this lo….but I really do mean it…I might give up in the midst of it…but at this very point of time I really wanna be wif dear for a long long time…

Dear, my temper very bad de….although you still haven’t seen it yet but my temper really really bad…I myself oso noe that…but I can’t change it…there’s a lot of things I wouldn’t want to say it out loud….although I lyk you to sae it out loud….not fair ma…maybe lo….but there’s quite a number of things I don’t want to say it out loud…don’t dare to say it…

Lastly, dear, thank you for being there for me during Christmas. This is my first time celebrating Christmas with my boyfriend really really. Though you say it’s your honour to spend Christmas with me, but, really it should be my honour to have you spend Christmas with me. Though this Christmas started off kind of badly coz I nvr mention anything about dear in the previous post but hopefully our date later will be a good one…

Wed 24 Dec 08

2008-12-24T09:24:00.000-08:00

Woah…..jus realise that I haven’t updated my blog for lyk a month….though it’s kinda usual for me to blog lyk every month….

Today’s Christmas eve!!! For an exception, tonite I’m not going anywhere….first time in my whole memory….went out the whole aftnoon today though to shop for CNY clothes…weird huh…Christmas not over but I’m already shopping for CNY clothes…this time I bought a white pair of heels..(not very high thou, dun dare to wear to high also) it’s plain and simple but well, quite nice….den I bought a dress….a dark pink one…my mum n da jie kip tellin me that one very nice….but I buy that one dunno why I find lyk gong zhu zhuang lyk tat….at first I saw de was a tube dress….but in the end…my mum n sis sae I wear tat lyk in front flat lyk tat….wth lo….so I ended up buyin a dark pink dress….saw a black n white dress…but my mum as usual….dun wan….coz it’s white n black…so ya….

Its Christmas already…so

MERRY CHRISMAS EVERYONE!!!

This Christmas….i’m not alone anymore….^^

Thurs 27 Nov 08

2008-11-27T05:12:00.000-08:00

Well….i was bck on Monday alr….mentioned in my earlier 2 posts tat I was going to hai nan dao in china for a family trip….woah ok…I didn’t noe tat my family actually owns a building in china…thou it’s under the family name..but the thought of it is jus quite cool lo….november is comin to an end…so fast lo….left one more month only….i dun wan it to come la….nxt yr I’m lyk so gonna kill myself lo….coz nxt yr sec4,o lvl liao….seriously tink I’ll jus kill myself lo….life is jus so so so boring these days….dunno wads wrong wif me lyk you qi wu li lyk tt….dun feel lyk doin anything…totally not wad I expected myself to be doin lo….sch hmewk ma….i lyk not yet even started lo….i’m the kind tt follows my mood to do wadever thing lo….n nowadays my mood tells me that it isn’t in the mood to study,do hmewk….in fact its sayin tt it isn’t in the mood of doin anything….maybe when I get some cash bck I could go shopping….jus feel lyk going out but I dun even noe whr to go lo….sad sad life sia…I have such a pathetic life….haiz….emo-ing a little oso….but it’s pretty ok lo….feel lyk finding somebody to pei me….but I got no1 in mind that can pei me de lo….one guy fren jus finished papers on Monday….tot he’ll hav time to lyk chat,sms or wad…end up oso bo reply lyk dao my msg….ok make tt 2 guys tt daos my msg….haiz…make my mood n feeling even more worse,more cham…so sianzded lo….not sadded but SIANZDED la….one thing to be happy abt is tt my maple finally make the lvl 30 mark….i’m nw officially a ice n lightning wizard…XD

Guess that’s abt all for nw bah….

Tues 18 nov 08

2008-11-17T10:28:00.000-08:00

Hmmm apparently my last post got to catch somebody’s attention….hahas…hmm this person actually called me n ask y my blog post so emo de….lolx….gt very emo meh??? Tt shldn’t be my most emo post bah…last time have a lot the ah….esp in my may n june posts….those were really emo post I must sae….hmmm well….i’m jus here to drop off a post lo….i’ll be going to hai nan dao hmmm today….coz it’s alr past midnight….will be bck nxt wk 24th…so til dn I dun tink I’ll hav the chance to come on9 so ya….dun miss me eh….hahas…XD hmmm guess that’s abt all…hahas….a very short post…XD

tues 11 nov 2008

2008-11-11T05:34:00.000-08:00

Past few days was rather busy la….went to night safari on thurs aftnn aft extra class….went hme first dn aft tt my da jie brought me n my di go out…went to look for some car key replacement…tink my jie fu wna chge his car key or smth….dn we saw a ferrari lo….nice la..it was lyk in the workshop lo…it was normal Ferrari colour red,dn it’s lyk half way unwrapped lo..can stil c the plastic cover...dn it was a convertible soft top lo….dam nice sia…dn aft tt went turf club awhile dn go night safari….sad and ashamed to sae..tat was my first time going to night safari….funni rite??i lived for lyk 15yrs and I nvr go to night safari b4 until tt day….it was rather fun lo…though I was kinda tired…my biological clock seem to be wrecked ever since I came bck frm china…at nite lyk abt 10+ I will start to feel slpy le lo…but these few days…I tryin to make my biological clock bck to normal lo…dn sat ne went to jurong east swimming complex…again with my jie,jie fu, niece and bro…went there lyk abt 4pm n de sun was hot sia…seriously hot lo…really enjoyed myself a lot la…it was really really fun…swam til lyk abt 7lyk tt…dn went for dinner dn came bck hme….

What should I do???i seriously dunno…what do I want,I also hav no idea…that feeling of cheap and bithy is coming bck again….those feelings I have seem to have become stronger and stronger…but what else can I do…??? I’m a third party aftall…this kind of feeling…I thought I would nvr ever have to go thru it once more again….this feeling…it has to be getten rid of….hw?i don’t noe…whether will I be able to do it I also have no idea…perhaps i’ll take on the love part bah..but mine is no longer getting into another relationship…but fooling ard…letting the loneliness in me consume me once again….he ne…I duno…a very weird role I am playin…helpin them and stuff…its rather contradicting…haiz…once again…I hav no idea…

Being emo…when will this feeling end???when will I stop emo-ing???

Tues 4 Nov 2008

2008-11-03T21:00:00.000-08:00

Ok….seriously sry sia….aft tt blog post rite I really didn’t managed to get any internet access coz aft tt hotel all the other hotels all is hav to bring own laptop de….n I dun hav one so ya….ok…I’m currently bck in Singapore…bck yest aftnoon....for lyk another 2wks???b4 gog for my family trip for 6days…hmmmm dun tink I wna type wad happened to me everyday at china ba….coz on one hand it’s super long n on another I cant rmb much oso…hahas…so I’ll jus sae as a overall la…

Food there is really sucky la….it’s lyk totally different then Singapore’s food lo…dn the food is oso very salty….they lyk to eat salty food lo….dn over there the guys rite…lyk middle age that kind….they all smoke la…the guys practically smoke everywhere and anywhere…even in the restaurant oso la…so irritating….weather chges are oso pretty weird dere….that’s abt all la….abt the differences….

I’m so glad i’m bck in Singapore la…..i jus miss the weather here….hahas…tt’s abt all….sry…it isn’t exactly a long post coz I really cant tink of any to blog abt le….
J0sh….jus 4gt it la….patch bck is not possible lo….i tink I made myself enuf clear tt time le la….jus 4gt abt tt r/s and I jus hope we wont be lyk total strangers the next time we meet but jus as normal frens…call…sms…all of those jus 4gt it…stop it oso…jus take it as a nightmare and 4gt totally abt it….

Sat Oct 25 2008(in shanghai)

2008-10-25T09:14:00.000-07:00

Hmm...managed to get a comp in the hote...i’m currently in shanghai...todays my second day of the trip....well...let’s start frm Thursday...

Thursday

Well....went to sch in the morning...thou I’m flying that nite...sch was as per normal...and there wasn’t any holiday of some sort....went to sch....it was a rather stoning session la...got bck the report book....i failed 1 subject for the overall....my combined humanities....expected it alr coz I didn’t do well for my common test for the three terms....passed my lit right on the mark,50...the others I pass rather ok la...but it’s jus ok lo....normal average not sae gd oso not sae bad....went bck hme ne...dn started packing my luggage....making sure everything is inside...went to tuition as usual....tt was my last tuition lesson for the whole of this year...so sad...aft tuition dn went bck hme...prepare my passport...double check my luggage...dn went to the airport...thx for all the concern sms that ppl sent to me...esp tat person...the person tt I mentioned on my earlier post...the flight was terrible for me...first I gotta take the motion sickness medicine w/o water...coz first of all...water wasn’t allowed to be brought in with the hand luggage...secondly...i forgot to take the medicine b4 boarding the plane...so no water for me...i just had to sallow it lyk tt lo...tastes so yucky...>< eewww la...then aft tt pretty alrite...

than as the plane takes off my ear kip popping lyk nobody’s business lyk tt lo...ok le dn block again...dunno hw many times...until the plane was pretty steady...dn aft tt listen to the audio thing they had on the flight...chged seats wif my frens lyk twice...but luckily ended up wif a fren I kinda close wif oso...then they two slp le la...dn I tried to slp lo...take a long time to slp...dn the gal sitting in front of me...one of the sec2 that came on the trip oso...kip hitting a seat...lyk kip slamming herself on to the sear lo...so irritating...dn slp oso cannt slp long..they 4+ on the lights n serve breakfast la...aft tt onli can wink abit b4 landing lo...

Friday

Reached shanghai le...took the maglev train to breakfast frm the airport...ok la...quite fast lo...it was at the speed of 301km/h so ya...the weather was pretty alrite...it was lyk in a aircon rm in singapore when u’re outside...when indoors...unless its some place tt has aircon otherwise rite...it’s quite warm lo...went to the science centre...

Hmmm I tink tt’s abt all for nw bah...for my today(sat)’s trip outside I dn blog another time bah...of coz the fri one haven’t finish la...but I cant rmb wad else...if I hav anyting to add-on I’ll do it in my next post la...I nid to go slp le...tmr gog to shaoxing...hopefully the hotel over there got provide computer and internet lo...dn I will try to continue my post...will try to kip u ppl updated de...worst come to worst wait til I got for my home stay wif the students at jiangong middle school in shaoxing lo...shld be will have internet otherwise hav to w8 til I’m bck in s’pore...on the 3rd of nov aftnoon lo...buhbyes...take care everyone...:]

To that special person...the one that I mentioned earlier...hope ur blocknose beta bah...if stil not getting beta dn go c doctor lo...take care ah...

Thurs 23 Oct 2008

2008-10-23T03:01:00.000-07:00

Hmmm….the last post ne…which was last nite tio said…I kena called as box in e ren la….dots…pls lo…I very you xin de ok….chao jiang yi qi de….ask my frens will noe le…ok la…enuf of being bhb….

Relationship prob has once again come into my life…of coz la…this time its no longer abt me…but happening ard me….a fren’s relationship has been on the rocks fer quite some time and it actually sort of came into an end recently…well I sae sort of ne is coz this couple both of which I noe quite well and is rather close with….and well…their relationship has been lyk tt over lyk dunno hw long le lo….so its lyk uncertain if they will really break lo…as a fren of both of them….i guess I could sae some things here…

All I can sae is….this is no longer a relationship le lo….sry to sae tt la…but a relationship cant possibly carry on with only one party’s love and commitment to the relationship..a relationship ne, shld be smth that both the parties enjoy and lyk it and wont be sad abt or anything la…

Ok I guess that’s enuf fer their relationship.. just believe this sentence…”what is yours will always be yours,no matter what happens”

That is what I tink everyone shld believe in la…nth in this world could be forced to be by ur side esp the thing called Love.

Recently got to noe a person really well…maybe not very very well but its stil a deeper understanding dn the one I hav abt him b4…this person ma…can be very bhb at times…trust me his bhb-ness rite…is jus superb…can be emo oso at times…he is a soft hearted person who alwaes give in to his gf…sometimes ne…could be also kind of irritating sometimes…tokin to him is really enjoyable…he ne…is the type of guy tat will treat his gf very gd…gd until that other gals can be jealous of his gf…he would be the perfect bf any gal would wan but stil would be xian qi by his gf…really dun understand lo…but well…love is blind ma…wad else can other ppl sae other dn to giv advice….this person ma…is having a blocknose nw…a rather serious case that simply get ppl lyk me to be worried fer him la…esp wen ppl lyk me is going to go overseas for a period of time fer the hols….to this person…all I can sae is just let it go and time will eventually heal everything…even if it will take a long time….

Some emotions are happening within me…emotions that shldnt appear at a time lyk this…emotions lyk having a fondness for a person….a person who wont believe me of having a fondness fer him….isit sad??or pathetic???haiz..nvm..

That’s abt all le bah….c ya!!

Wed 22 Oct 2008

2008-10-22T08:00:00.001-07:00

It’s the last day of sch tmr…Getting over things are just not easy…trust me…one of my fren ask me…hw to harden ur heart and not get soft-hearted….haiz…by rite ne…this kinda thing is jus my thing la…ask me rite is the most correct de…but once ask hw ne…I actually didn’t noe hw to ans…well, actually this kinda thing ne is cannot teach de la….though in some situations it’ll be easier to be hard hearted…but no one could possibly be 100% hard hearted….no matter hw cruel that person is rite…is sitl he/she who suffers the most….

Actually oso cant tink of wad to type so I guess that’s abt all…hahas….i noe it’s a very short post…hopefully my nxt post would be long one abt my trip in china…wish me luck…XD

Anyway…I’ll be flyin tmr nite to shanghai, china and wont be bck til 3rd nov aftnoon so til dn…c ya XD

Fri 10 Oct 2008

2008-10-10T06:48:00.000-07:00

Hmmm end of year had finished last wk….on Tuesday…ever since than I’ve been hogging my new desktop computer which is in my rm lyk hw I am now….

I gotta start letting go of the past already…been emo-ing over it a day or two last wk…n it isn’t really tat gd lo…but sayin letting go is easy but it isn’t easy to carry it out….carrying it out is lyk hell…well…I might seem to be the kind that are popular wif fwen…but in fact im not….

Startin to get tired over some stuff….wondering why am I even in this situation….reflection…sry..realli cant tink of anything to write…Hw??Wad shld I do??personally tink tt if tired le I shld jus let go…letting it go….so much things I wna let go…im tired of everything…wad could I do???

Gotten bck all my papers within these two days…my sch jus cant stop bombarding us with our results lo…check so many paper within a day…kudos to me…I only passed lyk 3 subjects out of my 7 subjects…pathetic rite???passed my eng, a maths n my chi…tat’s all…pro rite…all the other subjects I only got lyk 40+ all of it la…all the rest is 40+….>< dunno wad other subjects can I fail alr lo….sry abt being angry during checking of chem paper today…jus really very fed up wif myself le…fail lyk 4 subjects…

There’s so much thing I gotta let go…so many so many…

Guess im bck to being an emo gal once more…or it’s jus wad I am n I cant chge anything….i’m a selfish, bad bad gal….people shldnt expect anything much frm me….i noe its disappointing to others…but I’m really a bad bad gal n a very selfish one…maybe “trust” is no longer in me…no such thing as “love” for me too…maybe I jus don’t have the ability to go “love” someone….

Dunno hw long will this emo wave of mine last again this time…it’s been ard 4mths or maybe more since I last emo….

going to china in another abt two more wks...gonna fly on the 23 Oct aft midnight flight...went fer the flu vaccine yest....it hurts...><

Sry abt tis post…it’s again very emo…dun try to chge my mood abt tis…coz it could only last fer a very very short while…that’s abt all fer now…

Fri Sept 26 2008

2008-09-26T04:09:00.000-07:00

Hmmm.....yest tuition was rather fun....n probably also a great deal of irritating la...i had laughing fit fer the first half an hour.....all thx to the boey....stupid la....it was a joke to me wad...”lyk ur mum lyk tat nag u...” mr chin actually said tat....hahas....to me it’s a joke lo....dn kip laughin n laughing....dn mr chin....out of all the places why must ask him to sit in front of me n jan la....though it wasn’t right in front....dn he chao irritating la....kip takin my stuff....but i got my revenge....as usual...hahas...first is hit him wif water bottle...hahas...he shld feel honoured lo...i dun hit ppl wif my water bottle de la...be the first one he shld feel honoured...dn aft class i drink water stil try to pour the water on me...but too bad....he got wet himself coz i splash water on him....or rather pour la...hahas...paiseh hor Winston....tio abit of water...chao funni de lo....nvr tried pouring water on someone b4...hahas...
This week was eoy....chao sian de....tink i gonna fail all le la....so far the only paper that i think its pretty alright is only the chi paper lo....n i lyk alr sat fer 10 papers this week...everyday 2 paper...nw left another 2 more paper...dn i can regain my freedom n slackiness liao....hahas...dn can plae n relax awhile dn nxt yr hav to chiong fer Os....so fast is gonna be October liao...gonna go to china on the 24...flyin off on 24 night...dn go fer 10 days...come bck 2 3 weeks dn go china again...this time go wif my family...ib the 19 if i’m not wrong...
I guess tat’s abt all...updated my videos...take a look at it n enjoy the song on my blog...eternal flame...XD

Mon 15 Sept

2008-09-15T06:59:00.000-07:00

Hmmm…beens quite a while seem the last time I blog….some ppl might hav realize la…there was actually 2 posts..it might sound lyk me la…but in fact it isn’t me lo…hmmm dun misunderstand hor that somebody…I sae lyk tat doesn’t mean I’m angry ok….hmmm mentioned earlier tat I was having some relationship probs…but well…its gone…hahas…dun wna tok abt it…it’s jus purely crap la that prob…anyway it’s solved…

Hmmm…….my new comp is here….it arrived today…but not yet setup…weird de lo…today deliver only dn tmr dn come setup…weird lo…sianzz EOY comin…haven’t exactly started on revision la…wth…thurs pract…hopefully it’ll be ok….it’s sianzz de la…though it’s second wk of term4 n eoy is only nxt wk…but dunno why….feeling dam sian…lyk you qi wu li lyk tat…dn cant study…coz study abit only dn sian diaozz liao…haiz…cant w8 fer this month to end….eoy will be over n my new comp will be up…dn I’ll go kixiao…everydae plae n go out n stuff….hahas…I’m in serious need to distress n find my mood for studyin as soon as possible…otherwise I’ll jus die die…><….tink tats abt all bah…dunno why brain not working…4gt all the stuff tat I wna type…these few daes kip lyk tat…wna sae le dn dunno why will 4gt…haiz…nid to distress distress….tat’s abt all…blog another day bah…wen I can n got things to sae…hehe…bye bye

Oh ya…happy belated bdae to box…hahas…tat dae almost 4gt…hahas…

Aug 27 08

2008-08-27T02:44:00.000-07:00

Sianzz….hmm…ok…again a few weeks ever since the last time I blogged…:/ hmmm today got the prize presentation thingy fer the YES-NEC competition….scary scary la….first time stand in front of the whole sch dn stil mus shake mrs lee’s hand…dn she stil ask whether I enjoyed the experience….dots la…enjoy is got enjoy but stil dam stressed lo….dn aft tat stil got eng oral….i die liao la…miss out one whole para la….it’s suppose to be the same structure as argumentative…so it’s suppose to be intro,stand,reason1,reason2 n refute one point dn conclusion….i forgot to sae my refut para la….went up there dn it’s lyk blank lo….my competition presentation oso didn’t that bad la…but I jus cant rmb the things I wana sae so I jus skip to conclusion….dn finish liao dn realize I skip my entire refute para….sibei sian la….dn feel lyk everyone daoing me again…..wth la….make me feel even more sian….

Ok….the above para rite…I typed it I tink last wk de la….type halfway dn my er jie wana use coz was usin her lappy tat time…nw oso actually usin her lappy…hahas…coz she not at hme mah….hmmm dun ask me wad I wanted to type tat time…coz I cant rmb liao…hahas…hmm…results are back….did pretty well this term…except for my combined humans. la….esp fer my maths….my e maths is lyk I tink e highest I ever got ever since sec1 lo….tink it’ll pull up my overall marks fer this year….coz my first two terms de results were lyk scrap thru n I failed last term by lyk .3 lo….wth…amaths was better dn I tot I’ll do la….coz out of the whole paper I only completed lyk 2 or 3 questions…e others all half way thru dn dunno hw to do le….but well….at least I pass la…hahas….heng heng I pass lo….dn fer physics mah….i got the top 3 la….if I rmb correctly….but it was me n nother gal…so physics quite ok….overall results were pretty alrite la….except EXCEPT fer my combined humans. wth la….i failed my combined humans. again….it’s e only subject I fail la….wth wth wth….but not so cham til F9 la….

Sianzz la…my new desktop not yet come….it’s suppose to come either end of this wk or early nxt wk….it’s sian de lo…dn another 3 more wks dn end of year liao la….havent started studyin lo…wanted to plae durin this one wk of break but is impossible de la….hav to start studyin liao lo….otherwise I jus die flat fer end of year….which I tink I will la…hahas….today had chi oral....it was another killer la....sianzz

Tats probably all….i’ll probably blog wen I get my new desktop la….nid to settle some relationship stuff again…but duno hw to go abt doin it….haiz….k la…bb….

Thurs 7 Aug 08

2008-08-07T02:55:00.000-07:00

hmmm i tink it's been lyk 2-3 weeks since i last blogged....isit???...hmm wadeva..haiz..the YES-NEC competition rite...our team actualli got into the semi-finals lei...not top 4 la coz usualli semi-final is top 4 de but fer tis competition ne...it isnt it's top 18....yes 1 8...out of lyk duno hw many schools la...saw lyk cath high ah....acs(i) ah...montfort...zhenghua...swiss cottage...dunmearn(isit spelt lyk tat??) and many many more la...onli can rmb these few coz as u can see the first three schools is boys sch...n i gang hao noe a few guys frm each of the sch....so...we got into the semi-finals...well...there was 3 main lecture halls and frm the 3 main lecture halls...each of the lecture hall will hav 6 groups....and...plmgss...my grp got in wif the last slot....top 6 frm each lecture hall u noe...n we were the last...we stil tot wont get in la...but stil....well...mixed feelings came thru me...or rather our team...on one hand we wana get into the semi-finals but on the other hand we didnt wan to get in coz we had to present to a whole lot of audience n judges....but stil...we got in...

so in the end...we didnt get into the finals la...but nvm lo...aft all it's the experience n stuff tat counts....but we stil went to the finals though....i didnt wanted to go la....coz got oral....dn in the end had to do e oral first la....wth lo....the first topic the question n picture was so diff la....ok...enuf of sch stuff....

hmmm tmr,most schs would be celebratin national day....sianzzz tmr nid to go sch early....heng heng my class not gna hav to sit at the grandstand...can stay in classroom...hahas....yipee!!!dn dun hav to tio bbq by the hot hot sun....^^

hmmm...CTs are nxt wk starting frm tues n yet i haven't even started revision on any one subject la....dunno hw am i gna do this term....n i'm stil gna go sentosa on sat morning....hahas...funni rite???havent exactly started yet n im gog out....but well...i'm gog wif my er jie so ya....ok....that's abt all fer nw....bb

21 july Mon

2008-07-20T09:45:00.000-07:00

Hmmmm….been a few weeks since I last blog la huh…..been lyk dam dam busy fer the past few weeks la…..coz join this yes-nec competition….fer my cca….oh ya…btw…my cca is entrepreneurship club hor..not npcc…I’m a ex npcc gal n a ex netballer la….so ya….loads of ppl tink entrepreneurship club got no competition de….even if competition can compete wad….well it’s suppose to be come up wif a business proposal….yes….a business proposal….sianzz rite….i jus hate this kind of thing la….it’s lyk idpw lo…..dn again….y would I join it since I hate it in the first place….well….coz of some cca probs I hav wif my npcc….i currently have not a single one cca point….in other words….i’m joinin this competition fer cca point….not exactly…but there’s a part of it….

Past few weeks have been lyk hectic la…I’m practically stayin bck every single dae aft sch….n each time is lyk til 6+ ard dere lo…..assignments are lyk pouring in la….test here and dere…..jus had lyk 3 tests on fri….lit(unseen),eng n amaths….lit unseen was practically hell la….tink I either scraped a pass or I failed lor…..my lit has alwaes been sucky….english was on argumentative…tat’s the compo component fer this term….it was pretty ok la….stil can….jus feel kinda worried….dn it was amaths….ok la….to some ppl in my class….my amaths is one of the best few la….not I bhb la….a few ppl I noe tinks so lo….lyk jan,beatrice,ju,n my partner tat constantly has probs wif amaths,et. But I tink I might jus flunk this term’s class test….it was on partial fractions n factor remainder theorem…quite easy topics but I jus cant rmb….ok la…partly coz I dun exactly listen in amaths class…only sometimes I listen in class la…but tats becoz usually the topic my sch tcher is teaching I alr learn it in tuition….so when the class test for amaths was given out I was lyk “ok….i tink I noe hw to do this question…if I’m not wrong it shld be lyk tat….” Dn I jus continue doin…and the whole paper I was carryin this kind of thought doin de lo…except fer a few couple of questions…..

Ok….enuf of sch stuff….hmmm…..i’m officially 15 liao!!!!!hahas….my bdae was on 12 july…..hmm…..spent lyk the whole dae out tat dae lo….mornin went to temple….dn aft go fer tuition….dn aft tat go out wif clement,jan,box n my di…..hahas…my di whr got not cute lor….hes cute de la….but nw sec1 stil kinda blur lo he…..so aft tuition went out dn aft tat…..go watch hancock dn go centrepoint find Karen n eat dinner….den aft tt duno go whr so go vivo….my di jus zhao aft the movie la…..dn go vivo til lyk 9+ dn go home….hmmm i tink tat’s abt all la….gtg off liao….hmmm find another time dn come blog again…..bb!!!oh ya….can somebody pls help me write testi….loads of it….flood oso nvm….my Friendster is lyk dead liao la…..hahas…kkays….bb…gtg

fri 4 july 08

2008-07-04T03:12:00.000-07:00

ok....jus droppin by a post...loads of stuff hav happened ard me in also including me....my comp has crashed...currently at a fwen's hse....been rather poetic nwadaes came up wif a few poems but i'll upload it another dae when my own comp at hme is done fixed n able to use....past 2 wks quite ok la...loads of things happend though....tryin to get use to it...otherwise duno hw m i supposed to survive....fwens having prob...wif family n stuff haiz...actualli tot i got quite a number of things to sae but nw i ended up nt sayin anything...duno hw to start at all lo...sianzz...tink i gna end it here bah though i dun noe when den will be able to come on9...hopefully soon bah..thats abt all bah....bye!

Tues Jun 10 08

2008-06-10T06:25:00.000-07:00

past few daes has been spent mostly out my of hse...all thx to dear....hahas....nt xactly la....but well stil kinda....went out last sundae wif my er jie to watch narnia....prince caspian is so shuai la in 1 of scene when he saved susan frm the other Telmarines lo....dam dam shuai...hahas....some1 shld be pek cek liao la....coz i repeat this to him lyk dunno hw many times...hahas....dn went out last fri wif fwens....went to watch indianna jones...coz didnt wn to watch kungfu panda...so i chose indianna jones instead la....n it turned out to be gd sia...all thx to me...we catch a gd show...woots!!!hahas...dn sat was as per usual...tuition turned out to b rather alrite...sat wif sharon n nt jan....dn bloggd at nite...n duno y would it turn out to target at the clement....haiz...stil cnt tink y...wadeva la...dun bother liao...dn sundae went to rp...woke up late la...wth lo....luckily dear gt call me sia...otherwise cfm stil slpin de la....dn i jus jump out of bed lor...coz 8.55am nid to b in sch n it was 8.35 n i was stil in bed la...dn aft tat go rp onli to realise no booth..dn spend most of our time slackin lor....dn aft tt went out awhile dn go hme....dn yest went to plae bball....didnt xactly plae la...coz dear dun let me plae coz i gt bckpain....haiz...dn aft tt shoot a few hoops...dn again bckpain...think i got som1 worried la...dn aft awhile ok le...dn went hme...2dae is another slackin dae hahas...tt's abt all...jade!!!hu r u???hw come nvr com bck to my blog de...tot u sae wn to b fwens???hope to hear frm u soon....^^

Tue 3 June 08

2008-06-03T08:17:00.000-07:00

todae mark a new beginning for me...and oso an endin to sme stuff....haiz...ltr some1 sae i not givin face again sia....wrong person...wad a nice kinda phrase...hey ppl out there....im nt a gd gal...a selfish n inconsiderate one...though some1 dun allow me to say it...but i find myself a bitch n cheap one too....hw sarcastic rite...but tats probably gonna stay wif me fer quite some time....all i asked for this yr is a new beginnin,a more exciting n nt so boring life....and i actualli got wad i wanted but it's too large a dose of it....my life hasn't been boring ever since den...but it's getting crazily excitiing fer a period of time..n i again went thru tt fer the last couple of weeks....

dao some ppl huh....well i jus couldnt do tat...could i....but im trying to....so do ask me whether am i dao-ing u b4 tokin to me....life jus gotta move on...n whats been done has been done...and i realli wanna turn bck time so much so much....that 1 blow tat is supposedly suppose to bring me down has alr been made to me....but im currently havin help...help tat is gonna last me fer dunno hw long..."my heart couldnt be broken if it wasnt even a piece in the beginnin" n thats my friendster bckgrd the words...not an exact copy of it...but the meanin is ard dere....in my case...my heart has been broken fer umpteen times so much that im probably kinda numb to it....a zombie walkin ard that is probably wad would suit me best at times....

im exhausted....frm all the fights n quarrels...i dun do self reflection...my heart is numb at times...i feel pain onli at times...hw great n wonderful is tt...im a bad gal...dun come to me...a great loner....ppl are hiding things frm me....im not stupid u noe....a few ppl is jus hiding things frm me....askin me questions at 1st dn jus didnt bothered to xplain...life shld be carried on...n things could nvr ever be the same wif ppl...to some person...the help u said ure gonna do...i nw tink tts serious bullshit...it might be true fer tt moment but i tink it's foolish of me to ever believe u again....being my fwen is easy but losin the fwen r/s is so much more easier...

some1's gonna tell me to tink positive...again...n im nt givin him face....hahas...another emo post this is...but im not allowed to be emo...hahas

mon may 26 08

2008-05-26T07:12:00.000-07:00

this time i saw smth on my fwen's blog...haiz...actualli jus as i was bloggin the previous post...things starts to chge...my social life seems to be clearin up a little....having new fwens...not sae veri new la...but ya new fwens...box!!ure it!!hahas...sae hu oso abit the no use hor...dun tink he got my blog add bah...cant rmb liao...psps....

things seems to be clearing up...jus as hols are beginning...wads gona happen in my life fer the nxt sem??hopefully it wont get messy...i kinda of hav enuf of a messy life last sem...esp term 2...results are bck...face the fact sia..i failed 2 subs..overall....e maths n combined humanties....haiz...but im quite lucky enuf la...got 2 person wanna be my tcher...hahas...todaes o lvl chi...heard frm a fwen tat it's dam easy...well wonder wad other seniors tink lei...isit realli easy??or is tat fwen jus zhai??shyt la...kind of starting to tok lyk box le la...wth...><...dunno whether its a gd thing or not....haiz..though its hols but stil bo tai ji to do lei...dun wanna study la...but i jus hav to...sibei sian lor....

thats abt all....i truthfully hereby say thanks to him, my once lost fwen whom i dun lyk the idea of losin him out of my fwen list...realli thanks...kays...tats quite abt all fer this entry...the time has some freaking prob...it's 10.24pm of may 26 2008

Wed May 14 08

2008-05-15T00:28:00.000-07:00

well...de explanation didnt turn out as i hoped or rather tot it will....runnin away frm reality but it seems to be failin…reality seems to be “catchin” me in all sorts of direction and aspects….mr suny ask me abt my social situation jus nw aft tuition….coz I somewhat mentioned abt my life in e diary entry tat we all nid to hand up to him every lesson…well..my social situation is lyk stagnent..sort of cleared up part of the mess…the part which I could control…one thing to be happy about is tat at least Ive cleared part of the mess….ok..done wif this part…n though runin away frm reality is no gd but I tink ill still be runnin away frm reality….

Feelin damn damn emo once in awhile still….abt everything….im currently a loner in sch….tryin to fit into any clique…but to no success….a loner whom some ppl thinks im popular…lyk my godbro…whom is oso a loner….due to some reasons….social life is stagenent at the moment…tryin to fit into cliques…love life ne….rather at the peace n quiet side…aft everything n everything tat has happen fer the past month…or maybe not….

I can sense everything is gonna be chge….xcept fer my social life…

I tink tats abt all…finally 1 post tat is not sae very emo….hahas….

apr 28 08

2008-04-28T09:46:00.000-07:00

dunno wad to sae....history is repeating itself...n y is that person doin it again...i seriously wonder...nth to sae...fwens avoiding me(expected...wad on earth did i think they would react)...but im onli concerned abt 1 fwenship,her...tat is the fwenship tat i wan to get bck but hav nth to do to get bck the fwenship n her forgiveness..probably one day but i guess tat'll be in far future....him, i hav nth to sae...dun get wad is he up to...repeating history....

1 sentence n 1 question for todae:

history is repeating itself....

y are people hurtin one another??....

tats all fer 2dae n i await wad tmr would bring me.....another problem??or a resolution???

apr 27 08

2008-04-28T00:00:00.000-07:00

whoa....i was lyk feeling rather emo-y but i actualli read someones blog post n i dunno wad to sae....dunno wad ot feel xactly...whether to let history repeat itself again wif all the swearin n stuff but then again....i doubt so....y did i chose the other person when i noe i'm gonna lose my fwenship wif other ppl....i oso dunno....n ive come to noe wad i lost...but i believe life shld be lived day by day to the fullest....n since i made de choice i suppose i hav to take up the responsibility wif it....whether to either one of u....hahas im starting to sound lyk i emo but believe me im nt....im lyk so so feeling neutral nw....rather strange...tot ill be lyk pissed off lyk the last time but im nt....well guess i am in the wrong n I AM IN THE WRONG....nth i could do now to chge the way either of u feel....but though i realli care but wif the way ur r treatin me i guess i jus hav to let go of our friendship....coz i alwaes treated u ppl as fwens....

one thinks i find it funny that she trusted me n tot i took her trust for granted....do i realli sound lyk im find it funny???coz i realli dun u noe....the other thinks im usin him n maniplulating him....but seriously if i evr wanna use u or maniplulate u...y would i tell u the truth???tell u tat theres another guy n i lyk him n i chose him....if i was usin u n manipulating u, why on earth would i tell u???i'll jus kip givin u the wrong signs n make u think im interested in u....nw tats usin n manipulating u....so im nt...n i realli meant wad i said last sundae....but it's all over so lets jus nt ponder over it....

end of todae,i,janette fu jinting, have lost 2 fwenship,n i dun think deres anyway to get it bck....

life is such a joke.....

Apr 7 2008

2008-04-07T20:52:00.000-07:00

lol....it's been lyk one month ever since my last post....it's becomin more n more of a monthly blog....well, apparently the last post made some people irratated??(is tat the one?) and obviously the person mentioned in the post oso "spoke" to me....nt face to face la....but yea we talked and i continued being an emo freak for a few days as usual before returnin to my usual self.....made a couple of new friends and distant away from some others....met my primary sch buddy a few weeks ago b4 tuition n wow....singapore is small indeed well, apparently my pri sch buudy is gd fwens wif one of my tuition friend...well...they are both in cedar...same year...but it's kinda of weird n amazing hw we are all linked up.....relationship wif a couple of fwens has become rather complicated and well u hear it frm me again....i'm feelin lyk a bitch...hahas kip feelin lyk a bitch these few posts....realli wonder wads wrong with me....but i'm nt being emo this time...it's jus a thought that passes thru me lyk whether i shld do this thing and wad happens if the other party finds out....will e other party lyk think i'm a hyprocrite or smth...yea....these thoughts jus comes by my mind once in awhile n it doesnt realli mean i'm emo k???? i admit that im a emo kid but nt alwaes....jus at times and once in awhile......

school life has been starting to get busy this week.....i lyk have almost the whole week booked up....whether wif sch,tuition or gog out wif fwens.....im oso lyk gonna hav a month w/o a maid coz my maid jus went bck on fri nite.....so yea...one month w/o a maid.....wonder whether isit a gd thing or a bad thing.....that's probably all for now.....wonder when would be my nxt post....

Tues March 4 08

2008-03-04T00:15:00.000-08:00

it isnt exactly 4th march yet but i guess it shld be soon by the time i finish this blog entry.....been emo-ing again for the past few days.....someone might noe why jus tat i'm not sure whether shes reading my blog or not....been emo-ing for the past few days.....partly due to my term results which were kind of in an utter mess that's to me of course coz i think theres a whole lot of ppl out there who probably did worse den me....and taking into account tat this is sec 3 term 1 i prbably done quite well but i stil fall short of my expectations...not sure whether is it my target were too high or i jus realli fall short of my expectations....well...the highest i got ia a B4 n the lowest a C6 which was quite gd takin into account of others who actualli.....

another reason is well....dun exactly feel lyk typing it out.....but for that some1 is rather obvious why i'm emo-ing these few daes.....been wondering whether was it the right decision to make but it happened lyk a month ago....n i think the other person involved either den me seems to "forget" abt it alr....n im starting to feel lyk a bitch again these daes.....all becoz of the emo-ing.....well...u might noe who am i tokin even u are the other person invovled either den me but somehow i doubt u are....realli wonder wad on earth is happening to me.....been thinkin of events that either already happened....either bad or good.....n things that have a higher possibility of not happening.....how i which i could turn bck time to whr it all started coz onli den i think i wont make the same mistake again.....or i would probably stil go on coz it was a hell of memories full of good n bad.....sad, happy , more of rather confused i guess....

i may seem veri strong n quite a buly but to those who know quite long enough....you would realli describe me as emo girl though i hate to admit to it.....but well....i'm not that strong n unvulnerable afterall....

okay....that last paragraph the one right on top....thats actualli nth.....i dun mean anything but writing that above so pls....dun read too much into it.....i'm jus a emo kid afterall.....

Feb 21 2008

2008-02-21T18:55:00.000-08:00

haiz.....i oso noe i veri veri long nvr blog liao....alot of things happen for the past month....lyk valentine's day jus came n went.....n no guys rmb me tat dae lor.....so sad la.....haiz.....common test oso came n went...n i think i'm lyk gonna fail la...i lyk fail my geography though its onli by half a mark now stil got my social studies....hopefully my social studies can help me pull up my combined humanties....otherwise i this term de results is die de lor....i can lyk sae gdbye to my new handphone le lor...
gtg le....byebye....

Thurs 31 Jan 08

2008-01-31T12:01:00.000-08:00

lol...must be wondering how come at this kind of timing can blog rite....no la i not sick....last wk o level result was being announced and my sch, plmgss, aft comparing the results with the past years up to 1993 which is lyk 15 yrs ago....this yrs result is the best for the past 15 years....therefore theres a holidae which is todae.....

this wk has realli been a chaotic wk....bought my cny shoes n finished the shoppin fer all the clothes le....and then this wk so many test....mon gt nth la....den tues got narrative text n E maths.....den wed which is yesterday got topo map den by right todae hav chinese test but postphoned to mon den tmr hav lit test....><><..... its one more wk to cny le!!!!i jus cant w8 fer it.....!!!!it's the last dae of the month n say gdbye to January 2008!!!!! gtg!!bb!!c ya!!

Jan 20 2008

2008-01-21T00:22:00.000-08:00

hmm....so tiring this wkend....yest my niece came to my hse...den nid to look aft her....den todae i went to bugis village the whole afternoon...bought all my clothes finish....bought a black n white cardigen...a white top, a pink mini dress n a brown vest....basically i bought all my cny clothes l lor...left shoes n maybe buying tube top to go with my brown vest n white top....feel lyk buying boots lei...but dunno whether my mum will allow mah....feel lyk piercing a ear hole...asked my mum n of course, as usual, she objected...asking me to wait til i older then go pierce...sigh...nowadays kip seeing earrings....feel lyk piercing lei....><...saw the email jus now, no idea how i feel now....having a weird mix of feelings.....i jus have no idea as to wad to sae....

yes, i know...there's a extra jt out there who came to my blog n tag some...how should i state it???....flirting stuff....yeah...she came to tag some flirting stuff and believe me alrite...that is SO NOT me...i was stil in sch at that time n i dun sound so flirty or shld i sae bitchy....

something wrong with my eyes....><...TT....kind of swollen fer lyk no reason....yest was lyk pain at the cheekbone there....den this morning woke up and it's kinda swollen....><....anyone can tell me wad shld i do....my mum thinks its becoz i had not enough sleep...but i've been haaving not enough sleep lyk ever since p5....any help??blog probably ltr...it's monday morning.....

P.S: that jt, the one that wrote e flirty stuff is realli not me....i'm stil innocent alrite???<--bhb??doubt so

17 Jan 08

2008-01-17T17:26:00.000-08:00

have been blogging so much recently becoz of that someone.....i realli have nth to sae alrite....but if u dun bother anything abt me, y are u comin to my blog....but this is oso de question i have to ask to my ownselve....y do i even bother to go read ur blog when i know how different you change....that is realli a serious doubt...if ur reading this and u stil find that u cannopt be bothered abt me den stop comin to my blog...jus tell u one thing alrite.....u can go ask jan hw she actualli felt aft reading ur blog....wadever that she felt is onli part of wad i felt....u seriously dun nid to reply to my post coz all of that is just typed out in the state of loads of mixed feelings....none of us could walk out of this realtionship not getting hurt...n believe me alrite i'm been living a no freedom life fer the past 14 comin on 15 years....it's realli nth to do with u....seriuosly alrite...jus as much u dun wanna hear frm me i hav the same feelings....i'm realli sry to "murder" the old clement....but theres nth i could do with it....dun go writing abt me or telling ur fwens abt wad happened to us....coz the way that appears to me is u being a jerk.....i'm not bringing all the guys in u know me long enough to know why i said that and i dun mean wad u think in the state of anger....

Jan 14 2008

2008-01-14T05:32:00.000-08:00

well, come to think of it yesterdae's posts was kinda rush....but y would i care.....it seems lyk someone is getting the luxury of life....while i'm stil kind of struggling with my own life.....i may sound abit crazy esp to those hu I alr asked the question..."Are guys jerks/assholes aft breaking up??" well, i asked a couple of ppl the whole dae and i'm asking it again here on my blog....i must be lunatic....but it's realli in my mind la....i jus have to get on with life since somebody seems to be enjoyinh the luxury....well, i supposed time would brush off memories over time(hopefully)....

26 Dec 07

2007-12-26T12:59:00.000-08:00

ITS CHRISTMAS!!!!!MERRY CHRISTMAS & A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!! psps.....i noe its quite late to wish ur merry christmas but betta den nth wad......this yrs christmas stil can la.....went to orchard on the eve.....and saw smth happened.....there was this police officer lets name it "sir" well....my dad parked his car at california fitness the behind the carpark la......den we went to taka's "central stage" there was this christmas show over dere til 10pm......den aft tat we went to mandarin hotel (the one opp california fitness) and stayed there til past 12 midnight....on our way there, the sir was sprayed by this guy.....den aft tat over at the mandarin hotel dere...this same sir was for some reason on a guy.....it seemed tat a girl wanted to chase aft the guy n spray the soap foam on him den for some reason de sir stopped the guy frm running n somehow fell on the floor bah.....quite uptight lor this sir.....it lyk christmas....this was the first time tat i went to orchard on the eve n there aren't exactly a lot of ppl.....i guess tats abt all....it's the last wk of sch hols.....so sian....stil got quite a number of homework havent do finish....TT.....ok....thats abt it....c ya.....

Tuesday 4 Dec ' 07

2007-12-04T01:07:00.000-08:00

psps....i noe i veri veri veri long nvr blog liao....hmm...1 mth comin to 2 mths le bah....nth much happen holidays started and everything but i oso not bcoz of hols den start to busy i now stil quite free but starting tuition soon....den nxt mth is sch reopen le.....nxt yr sec 3 liao again in B2 which means i will be in B2 for the whole 4 years in secondary.....nxt yr doin combined science physics chem den doing pure lit, elective geog,social studies,a maths and de usual eng,e maths n chi....sch work oso havent do finish yet.....kip doin half way den dun wan do le.....den i lost my reading rites la....><....den cannot do one hw....gd is gd la but if teacher ask me to do is oso sooner or later have to do onli.....i think i didnt bring home la....find the whole table oso dun hav.....><....but the thing is i cant rmb whether teacher got return me my bk or not coz i pass up late....den plus is onli this bk cannot find lor den the others all can find la.....but the thing is onli this bk tat has homework the other bks all dun hav....i seriously dunno whether i am sway or wad la.....actualli oso got not much to write abt lor....life stil quite peaceful....for the time being onli la.....jus more sian-er den usual.....okay bah....gtg le....c ya....

Tues Oct 16

2007-10-17T00:06:00.000-07:00

haiz...so long nvr blog le...psps hor coz comp crash le....den now usin my mum's comp....hmm....quite a lot of things happened so far....the agape fair turn out to be a success though i was pissed off by some ppl but wadeva la....den finally sch is ending....secondary 2 life is comin to an end how guys??its lyk so exciting la....cant wait fer hols this year...alot of things happened this year...realli alot of things and these things and changes made a big diff in my life....wad i meant here i think quite alot of ppl noe wad am i tokin bah....dun onli think in that aspect la....but i oso meant in other aspects....lyk studies n stuff...that kind.....founders day jus passed fer my sch and it was quite a bore n very stuffy too....hmm.....its psle marking days this week and i bet those that are takin their psle this yr are all scared worried n excited weird mixture of feelins huh?tats wad i think too.....hopefully these ppl all done well n may they all get into their wishful secondary school.....for my yr ne....its subject combination le....hopefully we can get into the combinations that we wan n those that didnt done well enough to their own targets cheer up k?its ok de....n moreover u carn do anything to chge ur results can u?now, sec 4s this year these ppl are having their o levels while we start on our sch hols so poor thing rite but nvm coz they're gog junior colleges n polytechnics sia....hopefully they do well n may we all those get wad we want....look forward to the hols ahead of u whether or not u did well for this year or some examinations or anything....dun waste time regreting coz its over n u carn chge the fact of wadeva u wish to chge.....okay....its a realli post but i realli mean....gd luck! and let the fun begin fer some of us!!!^^

Big Gals Dont Cry by fergie

2007-10-16T08:57:00.001-07:00

Da Da Da Da
The smell of your skin lingers on me now
You're probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

[CHORUS:]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps 'til I'm full grown, full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they?
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

[CHORUS:]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do

And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry

Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
I'll be your best friend and you'll be mine Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if you want to
'Cause I want to hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But it's time for me to go home
It's getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

[CHORUS]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

La Da Da Da Da Da

I Think I Love You(Full house)

2007-09-27T08:22:00.001-07:00

Kurolli optago anilkkorago midotjyo hmmm..
Naega gudael / saranghandani maldo andwijyo hmmmm..
Kwaenhan jiltu-ilkkorago / naega wiro-un kabodago
Jashinul so-kyomwattjiman / ije donun nan / kamchul suga onnungolyo

Chorus
I think I love you kuron-gabwayo
Cause I miss you kudae-man omsumyon
Nan amukatdo mothago jakku
(u) saenggangnago iron-gon bomyon amuraedo
I’m falling for you nan mullatjiman
Now I need you onujaenga nae mam
Kipun gose aju kuke jarichamun kudaeye mosubul ijen puwayo

Urin ano-ullindago chingu guke ddak juhtago hmmm…
Hanabuto yolkae dodaeche mwo hangerado mannunke onnunde
Ottohke sagwil suin-nyago / maldo andwaenunaegirago
Malhamyo dullo daetjiman / ijedonun nan / kurogiga sirhun-goryo

Repeat Chorus

Nan mollatjyo kudaeranungol wooohh..
Wae monbwatjyo baro apinde hoo yeah..
Kudong-an irohke baro naegyote issonnunde
Wae ijesoya sarangi bo-inunkanchi hooohh..

Naege sarangul chumyon andwenayo
Gudae chongmal andwenayo
Ijenun kudaerul itorok sarang-hanunde

Repeat Chorus

Tuesday sept 18 07

2007-09-18T23:23:00.000-07:00

hmm.....kind of long nvr blog le....hehe....not much to blog oso.....first wk of term 4 onli but so sian liao....haiz....mondae go to sch oso nth to do....den tues go zoo.....dunno hw many times go zoo liao.....den this time was lyk tat ask to find the animals based on the description they give us den it lyk walk the whole zoo la.....use leg n walk lei....de whole zoo la....omgosh lor.....n tat zoo trip was one of the worst experience i ever hav lor.....den tuesdae went to chinatown fer humanaties trip...den it's lyk i dunno la....den i go bring my file those things....den my bag so heavy lor....it was rather enjoyable la.....go the places.....den wednesdae jus stay in sch fer some financial thingy....den it was stil ok la....rather boring...den thursdae was alrite....did enrichment fer science chem....den fridae watch cordin blue's(isit spell lyk tat??) jump in....nice lor de movie...but watch half way den de dvd stop by itself den times up liao so cannot watch le....hmmm....tats all bah....blog another time...bb!!!

Beautiful Girl By Sean Kingston

2007-09-10T06:41:00.001-07:00

JR! Sean Kingston!

[Chorus:]
You're way too beautiful girl
That's why it'll never work
You'll have me suicidal, suicidal
When you say it's over
Damn all these beautiful girls
They only wanna do you dirt
They'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When they say it's over

[Verse 1:]
See it started at the park
Used to chill after dark
Oh when you took my heart
That's when we fell apart
Cause we both thought
That love lasts forever (lasts forever)
They say we're too young
To get ourselves sprung
Oh we didn't care
We made it very clear
And they also said
That we couldn't last together (last together)

[Refrain:]
See it's very divine,
you're one of a kind
But you mash up my mind
You have to get declined
Oh Lord...
My baby is driving me crazy

[Repeat Chorus]

[Verse 2:]
It was back in '99
Watchin' movies all the time
Oh when I went away
For doin' my first crime
And I never thought
That we was gonna see each other (see each other)
And then I came out
Mami moved me down South
Oh I'm with my girl
Who I thought was my world
It came out to be
That she wasn't the girl for me (girl for me)

[Repeat Refrain and Chorus]

[Verse 3:]
Now we're fussin'
And now we're fightin'
Please tell me why
I'm feelin' slighted
And I don't know
How to make it better (make it better)
You're datin' other guys
You're tellin' me lies
Oh I can't believe
What I'm seein' with my eyes
I'm losin' my mind
And I don't think it's clever (think it's clever)

You're way too beautiful girl
That's why it'll never work
You'll have me suicidal, suicidal, suicidal...

Going Crazy By Natalie

2007-09-06T08:09:00.001-07:00

Ever since the day you went away and left me lonely and cold
My life just hasn't been the same ohh baby, nooo
When I looked into your eyes the moment that I let you go
I just broke down (down)

Baby if I ever get the chance to be with you again I would sacrifice
Cuz the feeling that I feel within
No other man would ever make me feel so right
Its nice to smile when I get your phone call at night
But I'd rather have you here with me, right next to me
I miss the way you hold me tight

[Bridge]
I gotta let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much
I gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
For you I'd cross the world, for you I'd do anything

[Chorus 2x]
Thats right baby I'm going crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me I'm in love with you baby

Break it down now I'll tell you what I feel
From the moment that I met you its been so damn real
My heart seems to skip another beat
Every time we speak, I can't believe I feel so weak
Tell me that you really need me and you want me and you miss me
And you love me I'm your lady
I'll be around waiting for you I'll put it down be the woman for you

I'm falling so deep for you crazy over for you
I`m calling, calling out to you what am I going to do?
It's true and no fronting
Its you and no other i can no longer go on without you
I'll just break down (down)

[Bridge]
I gotta let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much
I gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
For you I'd cross the world, for you I'd do anything

[Chorus 2x]
Thats right baby I'm going crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me I'm in love with you baby

Ohhh, ohhh....
Crazy... lady..... lately....
Ohhh ohhh.....
Ohh ohhh ohhhhhh
Baby...

Tuesday sept 4 07

2007-09-05T01:45:00.000-07:00

hmm....oso dunno whether now is consider as wed le ne or stil comsidered as tues.....take it as tues bah....hmm...todae go sana...npcc de....omg!dun ask me y i go fer npcc...fer those hu dunno de reason.....luckily lor...sana is onli opposite compass point...otherwise i dunno how to go hme.....><....so kns....todae feel quite uncomfortable den nid to sit on the stupid chair frm 8+ to 5.....den aft sana den kip seeing de dylan frm maris....he frm my atc grp 7 la.....dun xiang wai.....frm compass point de mac until hlm.....it was lyk so funni la....den me n my fwen take bus 80 den i think they take mrt bah...den it's lyk we alighting at hlm first...den they were dere boarding de bus 80 tat we jus took.....

last sat was class outing....aiyah..so pathetic...oso not considered as class outing bah...out of the whole class of 20 onli 6 came.....so pathetic lor.....den kind of sian gog to ps....de arcade dere not nice de....kind of big but not alot of attractin games lor.....den we watch hairspray....woah ok....de whole cinema was lyk almost full.....onli i think 1row got no ppl arh...den we almost cannot watch lor...coz left de 3 rows in front...we of course take de 3rd row lor....although 3rd row but it's stil can la....not sae must realli look up.....den aft movie finish le den it lyk 6 liao...so everyone head hme....onli yulin stay to go bunk first time go ps wif yulin they all nvr go bunk lor me...anyway i oso pok kai le....so no money to bunk....><

hmm...gtg le la.....bb!!c ya!!

Sunday 26 Aug 2007

2007-08-26T23:36:00.000-07:00

psps...last nite blog halfway den my stupid sis wanna use...><....haha...shawn won last nite for campus superstar....de youngest ever superstar.....nobody could be any younger.....

last nite stopped at watching anime rite.....realli so fan...dunno wad to watch next....now de shows oso not nice to watch.....den todae my comp not stable agian....cannot on the freaking comp lor....den dunno wad my bro do den can le.......

so sian lei....nothing to do....got no show to watch.....cant make up my mind whether to borrow my girl frm ade jie or wonderful life frm yulin.....so tat either den chasing anime i stil got smth else to watch.....

actualli i find tat i tokin crap lor....cant rmb wad i wanted to blog abt last nite.....><....i tink i stop here bah.....nth to tok liao....c ya!!!buuaiiss!!!

Saturday 25 2007

2007-08-25T22:43:00.000-07:00

been more than 1 month ever since the last time i blogged.....as in realli blogged.....hope u ppl enjoy the songs.....it's jus a few songs tat i enjoy along the 1month.....watching campus superstar now,the finale....wonder hu will win tonite....hopefully is shawn....hes so talented fer a 13 yr old....

Common test was over on monday which means academic yr of sec2 is over coz PL gog modular mah....so onli 3 terms of studying den last term which is nxt term is enrichment.....nxt wk getting subject combination the paper le.....den sch reopen den nid to hand up....dunno wad sbject combi to chose.....

wanted to blog de but i kena addicted to full house n tuesday...my dad borrowed the show frm dunno hu den i watch lor.....n i actualli managed to finish the whole show last nite.....well, actualli not exactly surprisingcoz i tuesday start watchin i watch 6 disc thru....frm 5pm to 11pm n the show onli has 16 disc.....so i actualli finished the whole show within 4 days....now chasin bleach,an anime,i usualli dun watch anime de lor....but this anime is yulin intro de....den oso quite nice...so stil ok lor.....

blog another time bah....c ya

思念是一种病 by 张震岳

2007-08-16T03:01:00.001-07:00

当你在穿山越岭的另一边

我在孤独的路上没有尽头

一辈子有多少的来不及

发现已经失去

最重要的东西

恍然大悟早已远去

为何总是在犯错之后

才肯相信错的是自己

他们说这就是人生

试著体会试著忍住眼泪

还是躲不开应该有的情绪

我不会奢求世界停止转动

我知道逃避一点都没有用

只是这段时间里尤其在夜里

还是会想起难忘的事情

我想我的思念是一种病

久久不能痊愈

当你在穿山越岭的另一边

我在孤独的路上没有尽头

时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸

却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息

汲汲营营

忘记身边的人需要爱和关心

藉口总是拉远了距离

不知不觉无声无息

我们总是在抱怨事与愿违

却不愿意回头看看自己

想想自己到底做了

甚黱蠢事情

也许是上帝给我一个试炼

只是这伤口需要花点时间

只是会想念过去的一切

那些人事物会离我远去

而我们终究也会远离

变成回忆

oh 思念是一种病

oh 思念是一种病一种病

多久没有说我爱你

多久没有拥抱你所爱的人

当这个世界不在那黱美好

只有爱可以让他更好

我相信一切都来得及

别管那些纷纷扰扰

别让不开心的事停下了脚步

就怕你不说就怕你不做

别让遗憾继续一切都来得及

Lady In Red by Chris De Burg

2007-08-13T07:15:00.001-07:00

I've never seen you looking so lovely as you did tonight
I've never seen you shine so bright
I've never seen so many men ask you if you wanted to dance
They're looking for a little romance, given half a chance
I have never seen that dress you're wearing
Or the highlights in your head that catch your eyes I have been blind
The lady in red is dancing with me cheek to cheek
There's nobody here, it's just you and me, It's where I wanna be
But I hardly know this beauty by my side
I'll never for get, the way you look tonight

I've never seen you looking so gorgeous as you did tonight
I've never seen you shine so bright you were amazing
I've never seen so many people want to be there by your side
And when you turned to me and smiled, It took my breath away
I have never had such a feeling
Such a feeling of complete and utter love, as I do tonight

The way you look tonight
I never will forget, the way you look tonight
The lady in red

Eternal Flame by Atomic Kitten

2007-08-11T10:18:00.001-07:00

Close your eyes
Give me your hand
Darling, do you feel
My heart beating?
Do you understand?
Do you feel the same
Or am I only dreaming?
Is this burning?
An eternal flame

I believe it's meant to be darling
I watch you when you're sleeping
You belong with me
Do you feel the same
Or am I only dreaming?

But is this burning (burning)?
An eternal flame
Say my name
Sun shines through the rain
Of all life so lonely
Then come and ease the pain
I don't want to lose this feeling

Oh
Oh, oh

Say my name
Sun shines through the rain
Of all life so lonely
Now come and ease the pain
I don't want to lose this feeling

Oh

Close your eyes
Give me your hand, darling
Do you feel my heart beating?
Do you understand?
Do you feel the same
Or am I only dreaming?

Or is this burning?
An eternal flame

Close your eyes
Give me your hand, darling
Do you feel my heart beating?
Do you understand?
Do you feel the same
Or am I only dreaming?

Or is this burning?
An eternal flame

Close your eyes
Give me your hand, darling
(Ooh yeah yeah)
Do you feel my heart beating?
Do you understand?
Do you feel the same
Or am I only dreaming?

Is this burning?
An eternal flame

Close your eyes
Give me your hand, darling
Do you feel my heart beating?
Do you understand?
Do you feel the same
Or am I only dreaming?

What I've Done by Linkin Park(featured in transformers)

2007-08-11T10:15:00.001-07:00

In this farewell
There’s no blood
There’s no Alibi
‘Cause I’ve Drawn Regret
For the Truth
Of a Thousand Lies

[Pre-Chorus]
So let Mercy Come
And Wash Away
What I’ve Done

[Chorus]
I’ve Faced myself
To Cross out what I’ve Become
Erase Myself
And let Go of What I’ve done

Put to rest
What you Thought of Me
Well I Cleaned this Slate
With the Hands of Uncertainty

[Pre-Chorus]

[Chorus]

For What I’ve Done
I’ll start again
And whatever pain may come
Today this ends
I’m Forgiving What I’ve Done!!!

[Chorus]

What I’ve Done
Forgiving What I’ve Done

Keep holding on by Avril Lavigne

2007-08-08T09:32:00.001-07:00

You're not alone, together we stand
I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold, and it feels like the end
There's no place to go, you know I won't give in

(Ahh, ahh)
No I won't give in
(Ahh, ahh)

Keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you

There's nothing you can say (Nothing you can say)
Nothing you can do (Nothing you can do)
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So - keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

So far away, I wish you were here
Before it's too late, this could all disappear
Before the doors close, and it comes to an end
With you by my side I will fight and defend

(Ahh, ahh)
I'll fight and defend
(Ahh, ahh)
Yeeah, yeah

Keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you

There's nothing you can say (Nothing you can say)
Nothing you can do (Nothing you can do)
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So - keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Hear me when I say when I say I believe
Nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly

Yeeah, yeah, yeah, yeaaaah
La da da da
La da da da
La da da da da da da da da da

Keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you

There's nothing you can say (Nothing you can say)
Nothing you can do (Dooo, do)
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So - keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

(Ahh, ahh)
(Ahh, ahh)
Keep holding on
(Ahh, ahh)
(Ahh, ahh)
Keep holding on

There's nothing you can say (Nothing you can say)
Nothing you can do (Doo, do)
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So - keep holding on (Keep holding on)
Cause you know I make it through, I make it through

2007-07-13T02:59:00.000-07:00

现在的我想迷路的小孩子，不知该走那条路。应该放弃我那个似乎越来越远的梦想呢，还是继续我的梦想............

*一个走失的女孩子*

Wed,11 July 07

2007-07-11T23:06:00.000-07:00

woah..it's been lyk a whole one month ever since i last blogged.....wanted to blog earlier this wk de.....but in the end didn't coz it was it lesson.....nth much happened for the past month...it has been hols n everything...usual stuff......

ai.......tmr i 14 yrs old le......yupx..tmr is my bdae....12 july 1993....i was born at 1.59pm. ..hehe...lolx...i even noe the time...coz health booklet hav mah......tmr 14 le....dunno how leh...hao fan ah!!!!!my mum wan me to stay in npcc den let me update hp plan.....><><...I'M AT A LOSS!!!!!!!......

Well, Wish Me A Happy Birthday....N May All My Wishes Come True...^^

Fridae June 8 07

2007-06-09T00:05:00.000-07:00

now....watching angel lover n bloggin n chatting at the same time.....erm.....actualli i stil feel lyk quittin npcc.....hehe...i this kind of person oso join npcc veri unbelieveable hor....well, yest got dry shoot practice den todae got npcc.....but tat's not all yet....nxt wk so hectic....mondae got atc... til wed....den i gog genting on fridae til sundae den it's lyk i onli hav thursdae to unpack my stuff n to pack my stuff too....so busy nxt wk....feel lyk changin blogskin but i jus can't find the rite one to choose lei....so sian.....okiess bah...gtg le la....blog aft my hectic wk..lol....c ya....

Tuesday,May 29 07

2007-05-29T22:35:00.000-07:00

todae....go watch pirates of the carribean:at worlds end....wif my er jie.....go plaza singapura......n watch...so weird...i went to plaza singapura's gv to watch spiderman 3 on may 1 then i went to watch pirates of the carribean:at world's end todae...it's lyk beginning of the mth then go then end of the mth go again...den plus it was the same cinema hall la...hall 3...but the only diff thing is the seats....i wasn't seating at tat seat....

pirates of the carribean:at world's end is quite alright la....jus tat becoz i didn't watch part2 den abit lost...but that was the front of the show....den aft tat it's alrite....dun lyk de idea of william turner(orlando bloom) becomin the captain of tat ship.....jack sparrow is my fav charac though i started off watching this movie becoz if orlando bloom.....elizabeth swan is pretty alrite....den they didn't realli end the captain jones(the octopus or wadeva u call tat) n the witch story well....other then tat the other were alrite la...

feel lyk writing a movie review....dots la.....alrite den....c ya....gtg le....buuaaiiiisss

May 25 2007 Friday

2007-05-25T04:04:00.000-07:00

arlo ppl.....it sch hols!!!!!!!!!SCH HOLS OFFICIALLY START TMR!!!hehe....todae got no sch..den this morning got meet the parents session...den kena tok abt npcc again...dunno whether i shld change cca leh......den aft meet the parents session then i go vivocity find my jie.....of course is com hme first den go out la...den go find her den we go sentosa.....me, my jie, my jie's fwen n my jie fwen's sis....all gals la.....den we go palawan beach(is this how u spell it??shld be bah) den i borrow my jie's bikini den we go suntan.....so weird la.....i kixiao de lor....yesterdae still got fever todae go suntan.....xiao one hor...but too bad mah...stay at hme oso nth to do plus my mum take the whole day off so go wif my jie lor.....enjoyed myself alot.....got a tan too....yay!!!!

hols starting le....life is so boring.....sobsob...wanna go out lei.....alamak la.....okay bah.....c ya.....gtg le...buaiis!!!!

May 20 Sunday 07

2007-05-20T15:16:00.000-07:00

okay....it seems abit weird fer me to blog on a sundae afternoon.....but i oso dunno why i'm blogging....rmb i wante to blog abt smth last wk but dunno why 4got abt it then now i oso actualli forgot abt i....seriously got nth to sae but nvm....i'll just update ur on my recent life...well, sum things are personal so therefore i shan't sae anything abt those...but seriously alot of things change...those that noe abt the changes shld noe wad i mean.....well that aspect of things changed.....den studies wise....common test are over.....luckily no mid yr....otherwise i'm lyk dead....got almost all 60s....i'm doin eng,maths,chi,sci,art,lit,well these are the mains but wadeva....i'll jus tok abt these subjects first.....eng is lyk 60,maths is 64,chi...at the moment cannot rmb la...hehe...psps....but oso 60 smth.....art leh...i dunno....the stupid mr leow haven give marksheet.....sry arh...no offence de hor......sci leh.....is oso 64..... lit is 51...*sigh*...jus pass onli...heng arh...i dun intend to do pure lit.....otherwise die de la....this time the results is die de la.....

common test over but still cannot go out.....sian diao.....coz....kena grounded becoz of sum incident.....okies gtg le.....bb......anothertime den blog.....

Friday 20 Apr 07

2007-04-20T00:40:00.000-07:00

okay...i seriously can't rmb how long has it been ever since the last time i blogged....but i'm sure it has been a long time and during this period of time noone tagged my blog...so sad...T.T.....lol....jkjk.....

well, it's term 2 now and i seriously hate it.....this term's module is lyk lit and art...my 2 worst sub. which means i'll be totally dead.....then there's a new maths teacher tat takes over mdm chong again.....crazy teacher lai de la.......giv so much homework onli til recently den get lesser heng arh...otherwise i'm lyk totalli pissed off with her le then if she carry on to giv so much homework i'll fan lian de la....

sports day just pass last wk again...the annual event whr we are allowed to "colour" our hair n draw on arms and faces....but it is oso the day whr we would alwaes scream our lungs out......then hav sore throat fer a few days then okay.....chew(blue) house won this year!!!!!yay!!!!!!we won in both primary and secondary part den onli the cheerleading part then lost so we won overall la.....YaY!!!!

quite sian lei life......thursday do napfa den fridae i do 2.4km....back gog to break soong sia.....

ya la...life has been abt lyk this lor...nth much actualli tat's y i didan't blog mah...well, now i blog le so better come my blog hor.....

monday jan 22 2007

2007-01-22T21:00:00.000-08:00

lol.....i noe tt i veri long nvr blog le......well,actualli not much to blog abt la......sianzzz....now sch reopen le....n i'm sec 2...so sianzzz.this yr streamin yr....must hv beta results otherwise kena scolding....toopig mdm chong......so irratating must bring the freakin yellow file every lesson....luckily todae coz the whole class brought den dun nid to bring the yellow file anymore....finally lor...the toopig yellow file plus it's ring one la....so ma fan......the school veri stupid lor.....this yr start wif the modular system den every 35mins change classrm wif all our bags n stuff la.....so irrataing.....k la bah....i seriously dunno wad to blog abt lor....coz i cfm won't tok abt my love life if i ever haf one....tuition not much things to sae except the freakin mr chin ask us to memorise the chemical stuff coz we doin chem this mth first.....luckily in sch oso do chem.....k...gtg le...bb

December 24 2006

2006-12-24T21:47:00.000-08:00

hihihi.....it's christmas eve!!!!jus wishin everyone a merry christmas n a happy new yr!!!!!!!!!bb!!!gtg!!!!!!

December 15 2006

2006-12-15T15:57:00.000-08:00

sianzzz....stay at home oso got nth to do......tmr stil nid to go to my grandma's hse for for gathering which i dread alot.....haf to see my that act cool couz face so sian.......actualli blog oso dunno wad to sae la i guess that's all.....c ya....bye

December 12 2006

2006-12-12T23:50:00.000-08:00

jus came back frm bugis....went there wif my sis n her fwen....woah alrite....we walked frm bugis to marina square to suntec city then go to city hall to take train n the freaking shoes which i was wearing gave me blisters......the shoe is supposedly my this yr b'dae present which was at july....wore that once n nth happen then kena nagged by my mum....my mum sae wad wait fer nxt yr's chinese new yr which is lyk in febuary....den lyk that so i didn't wear anymore....den todae go out wif my sis....my sis is the kind whr go out dun wear track shoes n dun lyk ppl to wear track shoes when gog out wif her except for her guy-friends....so i jus take my this b'dae present to wear lor den who noes gave me blister n it's not onli 1 at each side u noe??but it's lyk 2 on my left foot 3 on my right foot....so pain lor....aiyah...tml stil got tuition at mavis tutorial centre...sianzzz....at hme oso sian.....ut dun wan sch to reopen so fast...weird huh??....

k that's all gtg!bb!:)